its been a while

serious shit. its been a while.
hehe seriously december being nice to me.
i love you december. hikhikhik.
and guess what?
there are so many things happened.
hehe a good things and bad things.
semua ada.
anyway.
happy new year people.
i dont have plan yet.
whats yours?

are we the bad person now ?

when we says we dont want to be like this,
and years after that you turned to be someone that you dont wanna be ?

when we says we so not going to do that this thinggg,
but then you were doing that thing without your realize that you once said never gonna do tht thing.

are we the bad person now for becoming someone that we dont wanna be ?

TIESTO

the best night i ever had !
except drunk is not good for you. like seriously ! which it can damage your brain.
i dint remember any single thing about it !

nad, afdal, some stranger, me!

what a partayy !

waiting david guetta to come over here ! then we'll partayy hard againnnnnn !

BACK TO COLLEGE ! YAY OR NAY?

YEAP. title melambangkan entry.
so kali ini entry aku nak cerita pasal aku dah sampai college !
thanks to chin sebab fetch me from the airport.
so many stranger talked to me.
hmmph life.

sudah register. well result. i know. not that good. what to do.
tapi belum pointer lagi. i mean i still havent check my overall result.
so yeah. wait and see!

tomorrow collect the timetable and class started tomorrow. the fuccck rightt?!
hehe.

so i decide.i is going to tiesto! even im not big fan of trance ! HAHAHA

quick update

nothing much.
alot of things happened
just not in the mood to state it here.
so im just gonna keep it for myself.
for now lah.
kalau dah rajin balik, ill tell everything okay.

soon will be back to college?
excited ? sad? idk.
natural feeling as always.
just i really dont like to pack up.
sangat tidak suka okay. how i wish i have the magic to pack.
so i dont have to susah2 pack lagi

my mind ?
shopping.
i cant wait !
idk.
penniless?
as always. like forever. !
pui!


missing someone?
not a chance.
i dont have anyone to miss

pathetic.
sometimes. but i dont care.

living my life?
not really.

okay wow this is really pathetic.
im giving question to myself and im the one who answer it. HAHAHAH

WHAT?

FREAKING BORED UNTIL I WANNA CRY.
WHERE IS EVERYONE?
WHY AM I FEELING LIKE THIS?
YOU KNOW, FEELING LIKE YOU THE ONLY ONE WHO TRY TO WORK OUT THIS FRIENDSHIP?
AM I CRUEL FOR THINKING LIKE THAT?

MAYBE THIS IS THE ONLY FEELING.
I MEAN THE FEELING WHEN YOU FEEL BORED AND FOREVER ALONE

I AM TIRED WITH PENNILESS.
I AM TIRED WITH ALL THE SAME ROUTINE.
I WANNA CHANGE.
CHANGE EVERYTHINGG THAT WILL CHANGE MY LIFE AND ROUTINE.


URGH.
I CANT WAIT
YES TO LIVE MY LIFE.
I AM THANKFUL FOR WHAT IVE HAD RIGHT NOW.
BUT I WILL NOT GET ALL OF THIS ENOUGH UNTIL IM TRULY SATISFIED. YES

unfair

hello people.
as you can see the title we would know that this is not a happy post to be.

i am kinda upset and mad right now. to whom.? my parents. YEAH MY PARENTSSS! SO WHAT?!
okay i shouldnt say it that in CAPS LOCK.
i dont know. who to blame?
like yeah clearly obviously my mom is trying to provoked my dad that i should wake early and go to my lil sissy to sign her report card.
yeah look at your calendar people. almost the end of the year. so yeah. kids started their holiday with yippie yiipie yeayy ! and they cant wait for it.
i was like. yeah its good to wake up early in the morning.
but helloooo.. it make no difference if i have to wait for her too since she got the penyampaian hadiah thinggy! urghhhh...

okay that was first. !

second thing.
my mom is trying to say that my dad is being UNFAIR! YES UNFAIR THATS IT !
BECAUSE, he only went to my school since i was in primary but not to my others siblings.
why it is happened?
because i kinda insist my dad to go !
i was like remind him strike to his face that he should go to my school and sign the report card!
but my other siblings seems dont care about this nowadays. what i mean is the report card thingy.
so obviously my dad will think that is nothing since no one is talking to him like i did!

and guess what, they making that as an issue! like big issue!
hellooooo. okay look. im not trying to defense myself or what.
it just me. being upset to my mom because she seems saying that my dad lebihkan saya dari adik2 saya yang lain.
THEN, after had a big close to war conversation with my mom, my dad yelled and ask me to get ready. i overheard all what they said since i was awake just im restoring my energy to face the damn cold water!!!!!

i am so not happy about this.
my dad ask me to bring my moms to the school.
hey so whats the point me waking up early, and go with her?
i thought it would be easier for her to go by herself or paling sanang! ill go by myself!

my mom making this as a big issue!

what ever! i am so not happy with this !



judge me or what ever. and you know what, i dont give a single fuck to all of you!
*wondering if i ever had a reader*

MALAS

LUMRAH MANUSIA DILAHIRKAN MEMPUNYAI SIFAT SEMULAJADI YANG DIDORONGI OLEH SAITAN SAITAN DURJANA IAITU MALAS. YANG MANA JIKA TERLALU DIMANJA DIRI INI AKAN MEMAKAN DIRI DI MASA HADAPAN KELAK.

begitu lah lumrah kehidupan ku dimana aku tersangatlah malas untuk meng-update blog ni.

so many things happened.

mau upload pic pun malas. tapi akan ku gagahi jugak sifat malas ku ini !

mari! dimulakan dengan raya! well. raya aidiladha bosan. semakin aku dewasa, semakin kurang meriah padaku. kawan2 saya yang lain pun merasakan apa yang ku rasa. apakah ?

see the raya. as usual being retarded is our speciality.

this also. !

winning ! HAHAHA playin 3 ekor bubut2 like orang gila. phew. and end up swiming d club house ! :DD


i am looking for money! wanted to see greyson chance. breaking dawn. partying.

please!

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WHY I HAVE TO BUY THE KAIN FOR A METER ONLY AHH?
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am i ready?

am i ready to let him go?
am i ready to forget all about him?
am i ready to not to talk about him again?
am i ready to throw away his fucking nice scent?
am i ready to let him go?
am i ready to tell you this?
am i ready to tell my friends i have done something stupid?
am i ready not to fall for him again?
am i ready?

after like talking to muhammad ali. my bestie de bf.
first thing first popped out in my head.
I REALLY FELT TERRIBLE TO MYSELF AND EVEN WORSE I FELT DISGUST TO MYSELF.
how pathetic am i ?
HAVE YOU EVER FEEL WHAT AM I FEEL RIGHT NOW?
ITS HARD. TOTALLY HARD.
i really trying not to feel regret.
its gone. like forever gone.
hoping for something that obviously will not come back.
i should crash hard so i can face how bad the reality is actually.
BUT IM PROUD I THINK I DID.

after spending 30 minutes naked with the water. thats why i love thinking when im in the shower.
i think more deeply than ever. it took 30 minutes for me to realized everything. yea.

i did it. i think i am becoming new me.
new me is born because of you aaron daniel. :)
thanks for that.

i have found new solution for myself.
never get attached too fast.
dont you ever magnet all the boys again.
just have fun with yourself.
letsssssss !


the term of love that i used to hold?
yes. still goin on. just in need of time to find the right person.

NOOO.
in my mind.
he cant accept me for who i am.
this is a mistake from the first place since i knew him, i never tell him the truth.
so if i did, obviously he will cant accept me. FINE.
and so now,
from now on. i live my life. once my friend said, study smart, party hard.
thats what am i gonna do.
he's somehow is my idol. him. yea. him !
im gonna have the good life too. trust me.
ill meet you 5 years from now.
by that time, idk whether you still with your life.
or you already married and become someone new you.
i dont know. you dont know. we dont know.

so why dont we wait and see.

ill keep my words.
i need to get good life to show you that i also can live just like you.
thanks for that! thanks for everything.
now i know. :)

pypa.

i seriously can live my life. without much tears. which mean i am moving forward.
looking back? for sure, when i about to forget myself. :)

sleepyhead

hehe sebelah aku. jejari adik aku jugak sibuk menyusun ayat untuk blog nya.
heeehee.

tapi aku mempunyai sikap yang agak pelik dimana aku tidak suka orang membaca post yang aku tengah tulis ni.
aku prefer dorang baca after aku officially post.

okay back to the title.

i am so sleepy okay! i dont know why but my eyes is so damn heavy right now. urghh.
rabu i am goin to meet nani kee. idk whether the plan still on or not. hmmph.
lepas tu.

semalam. yea. hari yang gila. malam yang penuh kegilaan. risiko nya bakal diketahui.
aku hanya mampu berserah.
sepertinya aku semakin getting lost.
aku tidak suka akan diri ini.
this is not me.
what should i do to change myself?
i have the niat but my body wont let me. aka the devil has controlled my body. fully!

and heeee. talking to him makes me feel like dkjhfsjdhfskjdhfsjkdhf
idk. but my heart somehow is smiling.
icant wait to meet him next month.
he's been busy and he is sick.
i dont know. but i hope. he stay as one one person. u know what is the meaning?
let it be.
like ada jak orang baca. but sadly none. :)

and u know what?! i called him like thousand and fuck he asked me to call tomorrow. and guess what. he was sick and take med. HAHAHAHAHA and im disturbing him. HAHAHAHAH
i am so.. hurmm
and i told him that i went to the club. and he says im stupid. and dont ever do that again. and he asked about my mom. im sure darling. i will be grounded after this. and that will be the first and last partay for this month.
seriously i go crazy ! yes! you may ask my friend.
omigossh.
thats how we get wasted.
hihihihih

and up until now, i dont have the happy stomach. :(

but good news here.
i finally can controlled my feeling towards him.
i dont really look for him anymore.
im waiting him to call and i dont give high expectation. he is working. and kinda bz.
and hes not like me. so i have to understand lah. hmmm

but im totally okay. okay fuck. i should call m.a to talk to him.
but can i say if im scared of his words that might affect my mind?

pypy

KALUT

YEA. MASIH KALUT DENGAN KETAKUTAN.
NAMUN AKU TETAP MENERUSKAN KEINGINAN MUDA KU.
AKU HARUS KUAT DAN CEKAL DALAM MENEMPUH DUGAAN INI.
KU TAHU BAHAWA ESOK PAGI PASTIKAN MUNCUL SINAR MENTARI.
KU TAHU BAHAWA AKU PASTI AKAN TERSENYUM MENITI HARI.
APA YANG PERLU.
KESABARAN. SABAR ITU MERUPAKAN UJIAN.
AKU HARUS CEKAL. YEA. CEKAL RASANYA SUDAH SEBATI.
NAMUN LUKA LUKA TERSEBUT MENYEBABKAN KEPERITAN BERTAMBAH.
UNTUK MENGURANGKANNYA, IANYA MUSTAHIL KERNA KU TAHU IANYA AKAN TERPAHAT SAMPAI BILA BILA.
YANG MENJADIKAN KU KUAT, YANG MENJADIKAN AKU LEBIH CEKAL MENEMPUH HARI HARI YANG MENDATANG.
AKU TAHU.

LUKA YANG LAMA TIDAK AKAN BERDARAH, NAMUN PARUTNYA AKAN MASIH KELIHATAN.
LUKA YANG BARU?
MASIH BERDARAH. AKU MEMERLUKAN UBAT. LETAK LAH GARAM AGAR BISA LUKA KU DISEMBUHKAN DENGAN CEPAT.

AKU AKAN MENCARI KETENANGAN HIDUP.
AKU AKAN MENCARI TEMPAT KU BERGEMBIRA.
AKU AKAN MENCARI DIRI YANG SEPERTI HILANG DARI LANDASAN.

AKU AKUI AKU TELAH ALPA DAN TERSASAR.
TETAPI AKU MEMPUNYA PELUANG KERANA ITU ADALAH AKU.
SEMUANYA BERKAITAN AKU.
AKU PENCERITANYA.
AKU PENYUDAHNYA.
AKU PELAKONNYA.
SEMUANYA TENTANG AKU.

JANGAN DITANYA MENGAPA.
JANGAN DIPERTIKAIKAN.
JANGAN SEMUANYA JANGAN.

INI AKU. PERIT YANG DULU. KESALAHAN YANG DULU MENYEBABKAN AKU BEGINI. AKU TIDAK MENYALAHKAN SESIAPA. MALAH AKU SEBETULNYA BERSYUKUR KERANA KEJADIANNYA BEGINI.
TAPI PERCAYA PADAKU,
MASA AKAN MENYEDARKAN AKAN KESILAPAN PERASAAN INI.

SEMUANYA AKAN BAIK BAIK SAHAJA.
MASA.
IANYA MENENTUKAN CERITAKU INI.

TAKUT

yea. aku takut dalam mengejar kepuasan hatiku.
tetapi aku tetap meyakinkan diriku bahawa aku perlu tabah.
dan yea. aku tetap akan melakukan seperti pelakon lagak ngeri.
walaupun aku tahu aku bakal mendapat parut parut yang bakal tinggal di diri ini.
oleh itu aku wajib berhati hati agar tidak ada satu parut yang terkesan. :(

hikhik

LOL andy was asking me why he cant see my blog anymore.
iwas like acting comel and suprised eh really arh ? i didnt know pun.
padahal...

i dont change the setting to private anyway.
just i change the url. so no one will can read this. except my follower.

i think i already mention about this kan?
why should i keep saying about this? sakai.

well i have this in my mind.
he was calling me while im at the grandma's .
so obviously i cant pick it up.
so i let the phone ringing.
and just now i texted my friend and asking about this.
he said. see he will call you. and let him call 3 to 4 times.

but my heart say. call him back. yeah.
but until now. i still dont have the gut to call him.
so many things i wanna say, but i know when i call him. all the things will stays forever in my head.
and at the end of conversation, i will regret because things i wanna said i cant say it loud. it just pathetic me. i hate myself. yes. iam

i should be me ! :(

why ?

kenapa?

yes kenapa time aku rindu orang tu , i got the feeling that dia tak rindu kat aku. kenapa ?

why?
why this life kena complicated. kenapa?!

yes. i miss him. i wanna him to call me and talk to me even for a minute i dont fucking care as long dia call aku and say hi to me. but too bad.

he dont miss me at all. i know. again. im falling with someone jerk. like seriously jerk. hurmm. this is so pathetic. yea. aku sungguh kasihan.

aku langsung tidak berpeluang merasa what the hell is love. yeah. percaya cakap aku. 2 3 kali kena macam ni. trust me im goin turn myself to someone else that is not me.

betul weh. sakit oh macam ni. sangat sakit. untung la kamu dapat rasa what is hapiness when with someone you love. aku? HAHAH aku sorang je yang rasa love, that jerk. satisfied to play with me. hahahahaha

jangan jadi macam aku. seriously.

i really wanna sleep right now

but just now having lil chat with nad. and she said that shes goin to fea birthday partaaayyyss. damn ! and guess what. dia buat kat tempat c daniel tu kot. wtf weeeyyy. sumpah itll be awesome nak mampos!

i wanna get wasted too ! T_T i am so fucking jelous. why la. saya awal sangat balik. and things turn to be tersangatlah boring. like oh my. im can go die now. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !

please let me do something useful. how to make myself busy so that my mind will not think about him even once ?! HOW?

im trying to talk to my heart. my mind was agree but seems my heart is so stubborn. she dont wanna listen to me ! even for once. shit la wey. shitt T_T

i wanna get wasted. so that i dont remember any single thing ! yesss ! even just for a night. i dont care anymore ! hmmmmmmmphh.

and i really hope nad will not talk anything or what so ever that can reveal explode my stupid lil liars. HAHAHAHAH

but thank god. in the time i needed this one guy but never get his attention. theres someone need my attention. and i am nice person. why not? layan je la dia. trust me that fucking guy will not contact me. like what c george cakap. so what ever !

im thinking of deleting his number bha. but wait. cannot cannot !

even no relationship. friends with benefit. why not :D

yeay !

yeah ! ive change the url. so i guess. only me and the blogger geng who followed me will can read my post.

yes. it is because. im goin to post something like more private. but i dont think so la weh .

well i just wanna tell you that i am so stupid. silly. idiot. any words refer to stupid. thats for me :)

betul weh. and thanks george! seriously thanks for being here keep replying my msg with my nonsense. trust me. i dont have anyone that i can trust besides you. thanks for that. i really appreciate it. and i know your not going to read this. but still i wanna thank to you !

i seriously need to get wasted. in order to forget thisss.. yea this one guy actually.

oh shit !! shit shit shit !!!!!

what should i do now? ive been taking that, but still got no effect. im going to die. like seriously !!

what am i going to do ?!


pypy

okay my english so like fucking sick. im sorry for that. :D

nightmare

yes. nightmare semalam sangat mengerikan. i dont know why. my mind suddenly sharp straight to this man. yes. that man. i dont know what is the meaning of my bad dream.

he the one who make my eyes go blind. how ? by the sparkle of the glass. until when i try to closed my eyes, my nightmare continues by the sparkle. and i cant close my mind. it took about 30 mins to convince my eyes its okay. it just another nightmare. and i even write my worries in a paper, and guess what? it really work. damn work ! huh. thank god. this is crazy? what is happening ? am i into to him ? eeehhhh like seriously? no waayy. i think the way he done to me make me go into for him.

i know the way of him is totally debunked but heyy we dont know. sseee how part of me really tries to back him up. hmmmm

this is crazy. tell meh. this is another temporary feeling? HAHAHAHAHA

but why dont we just try ? if its not working. theres must be someone out there that is right for us. expect less! no worries. stop imagining! :D simple ! :D

pypy

ahh i can feel his smell of perfume. damn nice wehh. ahahahaha i loike people with good smell. urrrmm nyumeehh !

stressquote

betul betul terkena pada batang hidung aku sendiri! toink toink ! -oo-

credit to twitter!

write down everything your worried about and then read it before you go to bed.

damn ! tapi kalau tulis bukan makin teruk kaaa? i hope. hurm. nevermind.

but then first think first, apa yang saya worry kan ?

my mind dont have the answer? i think i need friends and fun to vanish this worry ! hurmm..

okay let me tell you. my worry is what should i do when he asked to meet me? haiyo.
my worry is what should i say to avoid from meeting him?

haha i guess that two thing is my major worry. stupid kan!

trust me

this stupid fear-ness feeling will go away someday !

all is well.

i actually feel ashamed to ask forgive-ness from Allah because of what ive done.

actually it is not like im doing something big. or aka im just being kepoh and mengada mengada okay?

but idk why. everything seems so wrong right now.

i know i need to ask Allah to calm myself down. but i know He wont help me. i know He must feel betrayed. im sorry! :(

really sorry. i swear i just wanna have fun and things turn to be like this. 180degree !

i got my lesson learn here. just party with your friends. yes ! just them ! no need anyone else.

mini heart attack when he called me. the yaff man !


T_T

buddy :)

thanks to my boyfriend ! after talking to him. i feel more better and relieved. he helped with his useful suggestion and opinion. i do appriciate it george ! thanks to for being there when i need someone to talk. and lucky u. you will not get pregnant. thats why u can have have and have fun !

thanks george ! thanks ! sumpah aku rasa macam phewwww~

actually i think i know the main point is. im struggling with my friends. i mean i know i am afraid what if they talk back about me ? i know surely they'll do. but just remember. this is about yourself and the themselves. so if my friends not involved in it. i dont care if they wanna sibuk2 pasal my hal. talking or mengumpating. i dont care anymore. i dont have time to shut everyone's mouth. :)

just live the life. macam c rihanna cakap dalam lagu cheers(drink to that)

Life's too short to be sittin' round miserable
People gon' talk whether you doing bad or good, yeah!

betul tu kan ! so nda payah la fikir apa yang dorang fikir. lantak dorang la ! janji kau cherrrrrrrrrrrrrssss !

i think i didd something wrong.

yesss. thats it. i think i did something. i did take it. i do have the choice. leave it or take it and the most stupid part is i take it! whats was on my mind ?! awww shit man !

this is super not right. urgh. im seriously going to die. oh maiigaaaadd.. shitt man ! so shit mann!

and now, i cant even stop from not thinking about this. the most stupid thing i did ever. i really wanna burst it out. i dont have anyone to tell like seriously. now, i need my boobies. she knows everything i guess. im so scared. i have assignments. exam. ya Allah, aku tahu aku dah melakukan kesilapan besar, perbaiki aku dan bagi la aku kejalan yang lurus dalam menempuhi hidup ini. this is not what i want. seriously. shit la shit !!

i can die to think about this ! :((

actually this is not that hard as you guys think. i do have choice what to do. ! first, appear in his life and then yea dissapear. or dissapear forever! i really can do that. many things and thought running in my mind. shit!

and the most important is, i need to take this easy! yes supper easyy! just go with another pretty liars. i dont want to attend his fucking pp. seriously. i just wanna stay here and chill. shit la wey. haih. so what im going to do is to call him suddenly and say something so that he knows you really cant attend the fucking pp! lololololol

i am seriously doesnt care if he's alot of money like seriously. i dont give a damn about it. but. naaah i think i made wrong choice and move. i cant undo this but i have to move forward without any regret feeling. please

LITTLE BITCH

THIS LITTLE BITCH AAH. I DONT KNOW WHY, BUT I CAN FEEL THAT SHE IS GOING TO DOWN.
SHE IS SO DAMN STUPID.
YOU FREAKY RETARD BIATCH.
STOP WHINING AND COMPLAINING ABOUT EVERYTHING.
PLEASE BE GRATEFUL JUST FOR A WHILE YOU STUPID BITCH.
TRUST ME, YOU DONT EVEN LOOK CUTE WITH THIS PERSONALITY.
DONT CHU HAVE BETTER ISSUE BESIDES YOUR FREAKING LAME ISSUES?
TRUST ME, YOUR ARE SO VILLAGE EVEN YOU LIVE IN THE CITY.
YOU FREAKING LITTLE BITCH, ITS TIME TO GROW UP.
DONT RUINED YOUR SECOND CHANCE.
AGAIN, PLEASE THINK FOR YOU FUTURE. DONT BE STUPID. FOLLOWING YOUR STUPID KAMPUNGAN FRIENDS TO HAVE FUN.
U DO HAVE FUN, BUT REMEMBER THE WORD 'LIMIT' LIMIT YOURSELF YOUR MOTHERFUCKER STUPID LITTLE BITCH.

THANK YOU.

OR SHOULD I SAY THAT, YOUR FAMILY IS A STUPID PEOPLE? RELY YOUR DADS MONEY DIDNT BRING YOU TO ANYWHERE. SOMEDAY, HE WILL DIE AND ALL THE MONEY HE LEFT FOR YOU WILL FINISH SOMEDAY JUST LIKE THAT. TRUST ME.

NO PARIS. JUST STAY AT YOUR HOME AND BE STUPID PATHETIC PEOPLE.

IM JUST SAYING AND REMIND YOU WHERE YOU SHOULD STAND RIGHT NOW.

FUCK YOU BOYFRIENDS AND FRIENDS. THEY WILL NOT HELP YOU IN THE FUTURE. MARK MY WORDS. MAYBE SOME OF THEM, BUT LUCKY YOU IF YOU FOUND THE REAL FRIENDS.


THIS IS SPECIAL FOR YOU. FOR THOSE WHO FEEL MINIHEART ATTACK AND THIS POST STAB YOUR HEART.
BEWARE, MAYBE THIS IS SPECIAL JUST FOR YOU.

HATE ME? IM DONE MY JOB AS A GOOD FRIEND EVEN I DONT SHOW IT IN THIS POST. :)

PYPS

SATURDAY

my aunty is on her way from kl to meet me.
reason: we are goin to nilai 3 to see something that can we spent on . lolol.
no la actually, we are goin there to buy the bunga telur for what? im not sure.
and today i have class since this is the last of study week for this sem thats mean, the sem is about to end ! and guess what? its almost november which is we almost say goodbye to 2011 and hello to 2012.

suprise huh ? me too.
i dint know time goes so damn fast just like this.
i dint know whether i achieved something for this year.
or it just the same as previous year which ive done nothing. NOTHING AT ALL.

pathetic huh? yes. i know. and u guys knows too.

im about to finish my sem which still got year to go.
HAHA that is also mean i will be the senior! hehehehehhe
cant wait for that !

but here, theres no such thing called senior and junior. all of us is the same.
which the life here is totally different with the uni life. sumpah !!
wanna know why? i suggest you guys to not to go here. you dont have life.
you just have to study and the social life? urmm i think all of us figured it out without anyones help.
which mean, the more you friends. the easier for you to social.
and vice versa.

my aunty is about to reach here. so i better end my words here.

p/s: i am so fucking sorry if i didnt put some words because it just me. i am like that.
so babi kan ? no i dont know, it just when you in eager mood to type until u missed words. and when i read back, i also cant understand what am i trying to say. HAHAHAH

so toddles guys!


enjoy your saturday !


xoxopypy

COLLEGE IV

HOT HOT PANAS PANAS !

OKAY COLLEGE DIGEMPARKAN. OPSS TAKDE LA GEMPAR MANA PON. ORANG2 SARAWAK JE GEMPAR KOT? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

MAU TAU APA ?!

HAFIZ NENONENO TU DATANG COLLEGEE.. WWUUUUUUUU

WHY ? WHY ? EH WHY EHH ? :DDDDDDD


JENGJENGJENGGGG !

INI ADALAH DISEBABKAN HAFIZ AWAN NENONENO TU STUDY SINI. I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FFF WEHH. WHY HERE ?! WHYYYYYYY ? MACAM AKU PULAK YANG MAU MATI BHAAA . DOII TOLONG LA BERGAMBAR GAMBIR DORANG YEA. HAFIZ . HMM -.- OKAY FINE.

DENGAR2 ADIK DIA AMBIK COURSE ART AND DESIGN. AGAIN ! WHYYYYY HERE ?! WHYYYYYY?!! LIM KOK WING DO BETTER OH FOR REAL THAN HERE. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!! -.- KASIHAN SUNGGUH KEPADA MEREKA. HMMMM

COLLEGE NE. SUMPAH WEH. MANAGEMENT MACAM HARAM. SUMPAH. AKU TAK TIPU. HAIYAAAAAA.. AKU PUN MANGSA MANAGEMENT JUGAK. KESIHAN WEH. DAMN !!!

TAPI APA2 PUN. SELAMAT DATANG KEPADA ADIK HAFIZ YANG BAKAL BELAJAR DISINI. EH DAH REGISTER DAH PON. KRIK KRIK KRIK.

DAH TU DATANG TIME TAKDA AIR PULAK. BETUL2 SPOIL OH. KALAU AKU. AKU TARIK BALIK OHH. PINDAH COLLEGE. HAHAHAHAHAA

ITU AKU! MEMERLUKAN MESIN PEMUTAR MASA RIGHT NOW !


PYP

COLLEGE III

OKAY SEKARANG TENGAH BERADA DI COLLEGE LIBRARY. HOHOH

TENGAH RUSHING NAK SIAPKAN ASSIGNMENT ENGINEERING DESIGN.HAIYOO

OKAY PROBLEM TERBESAR YANG DIALAMI AGAK2NYA SEMUA BUDAK COLLEGE LEGENDA IAITU JENGJENGJENG !!!!!!!

COLLEGE TIADA AIR.

WHAT THE FUCK KAN. RUMAH AKU BARU TADI TENGAHARI TAKDAK AIR.
TAPI AKU DIFAHAMKAN ADA LAGI BLOK YANG SUDAH 2 HARI TAKDA AIR.
AND ADA YANG MENJADIKAN ALASAN INI UNTUK TIDAK PERGI KE KELAS EKORAN MASALAH AIR.
HAHAHAHAHA

AGAK LA WEYY. NASIB BAIK KELAS AKU PAGI AND ADA AIR, SO SEMPAT LA MANDI. HIHIHIHIHI

APE LAA COLLEGE NI. TAK BAYAR BILL KE HAPE.

ECEHH TAKDE LAH. MASALAH NI MEMANG SUDAH AKAN BERLAKU PASAL ADA PENYELEGARAAN APA TAH. HAHAH.

TAPI ATLEAST INFROM LA AWAL2 KAN.

COLLEGE! URGHHH NGOKNGEK DUSH DUSH.

OKBAI BATTERY LOW !!

PYPS

COLLEGE II

HAHA kelewatan akibat kesibukan tentang assignment membataskan diri ini untuk meng-update pasal college !

okay. highlight hari ini =pelajar junior perangai macam senior=

okay lebih bahasa kasar, berlagak.

itu yang aku perasan student junior nowadays. hehehe tak percaya. contoh terdekat, budak sarawak bawah rumah aku. perghh dia punya perasan berlagak bajet hot. rambut panjang, selim. pandang pun pelik2 then kau tau tak instinct kau selalu betul . yes. hari2 nak melepet bawah bblok. kalau duduk kat lantai tu bersih takpe. ni cam harem. kotor gila kot lantai blok tu. HAHAH eww.

semalam aku turun, pandang orang pelik2 dengan boyfriend dia tu. tahu la kau ada perlindungan dari KAKAK SENIOR kaurang ! HAHAHAHA kakak senior merangkap kawan bekas housemate aku. yaaaiii geli2 aku kalau ingat balik perangai dorang.

tahu la kau senior.bajet gila. menyampah aku. aku bukan lah nak cakap aku paling baik disini. ini blog aku. suka hati aku nak menzahirkan apa yang terbuku di hati aku ni kan. HAHAH

p/s: kepada budak junior, jangan nak bajet senior sangat lah wey. trust me, nda kan pergi mana juga dengan attitude begitu. harap2 kamu sedar awal sebelum terlambat. :)

pyps

HUJAN

cepat lahhhh hujan. !

menyesal aku makan maggi tadi, terus lah mengantuk tahap cipan bha saya. shett oh shett! in need of caffeine right now ! nenonenoneno *after this aku buat lah.

ka hujan yang menyedapkan lagi suasana sampai aku mo tidur ni. aiyorrkk.

semalam kan. saya suda bagi cerita ka yang my siblings d sabah kasi gotcha call sama saya ? kalau belum meh saya cerita.

adakah time tu baru balik dari derby2. sekali ada 4 misscalled then call balik la, sekali tu, iza yang cakap , dia bilang tangan c azri patah sebab main longboard and baba nda tau. takut kena marah. trus aku cakap la pigi la hospital, dlang nda payah sebab suda beli concrete. well fyi adik aku 2 ekor kembar tu st john so maybe dorang a bit la kali kan. terus dorang p concrete tu tangan. .

i was like astagaaaaa.. panic jua la sekejap. then google2 pasal broken arm la apa benda la semua. dapat juga input sikit. ahaha terus call balik cakap sama adik saya, tanya which tangan yang patah. then kanan. i was like maaagossh sudah lah mau spm, kalau baba tau confirm habis dibising. then aku, tiba2 adik aku c azri mo cakap, dlang tangan dia sakit weh, patah ne bengkak, terus dia cakap lagi ada 1 benda trus la GOTCHA !!!!!!! farkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk weh..

ketawa2 dorang kesukaan aahh. actually nda la patah, just luka tapi agak besar lah. mau tgk naa p la fb dia yea. hmmmmm..

apa lagi aku mau cakap ne ? mengantuk bha ne. habis idea sudah. shit oh T_T

pyp

ASSIGNMENT MADNESS

HEHE OKAYY.

currently dekat mcD tengah struggle menyiapkan assignment. eh ? struggle ke ? hihihihi

agak la. tapi actually part aku tu takde la bz sangat. dorang2 tuh yang banyak. hehe

mengantuk ada, kenyang ada. apa lagi. hhmmmm.

tapi still after this, ada 2+2=4 lagi assignment dalam kiraan.

then kena hantar before 1 november. aku bukan macam roomate aku. -.- ayorrkkk habis la ini macam deiii.

hmm anyways,somewhere somehow. ada picture for u guys !

cik aiyu kita tengah senyum dengan jayanya. oh. shes my another team member for this assignment group :D

yes 2 ketul ni jugak my team members merangkap classmate aku. :D

and finally muka aku yang harem. happy la konon dapat ayam mcD :D

okay aku kena siapkan sikit kerja aku ni sebelum dapat membaham ayat mcD aku oh yeah !

pyps

COLLEGE I

hehehehehe hello guys.

kenapa college ?

well tadi bha kan time dalam toilet tengah mencuci kain pakai tangan kan, tiba2 aku dapat ilham mau tulis pasal college. so sekarang ne aku akan menggosipkan tentang college aku. bukan college, tetapi student2 d college. HAHAHHAHAHAH

orang lain post pasal artist. kali ni aku tolong budak2 college aku jadi artist. nak bajet hot sangat kan ! :D

okay jom bermula gossip gossip.

eh tapi hari ni, aku hanya akan bagi pengenalan tentang college aku. hehe so student2 hot bersabar yea.

okay saya study di LINTON COLLEGE UNIVERSITY, AKA KOLEJ LEGENDA yang banyak makan duit tipu. i call it as duit tipu. :) ikut suka korang mau panggil duit apa. oh forget it pasal duit. ianya terletak d mantin, negeri sembilan. yea. bukan banting, tapi mantin. everytime orang tanya study mana, mantin. haaa? banting. gossh why so pekak laa dei. MANTIN! okay? aku ambik jurusan mechanical engineering. dont worry aku tak pandai. haaa tuu haa assignment aku berlambak jugak tak buat lagi. bukan apa. malas. tahu2 la kalau orang terpaksa, semuanyaaa hurrrmm. so better lambat2. opss.

okay college ne facility urmm korang datang sini then nilai laaaa sendiri. tempat tinggal dia okay best sikit. bukan macam asrama kena kongsi sampai 6 7 8 orang.

kelas dia. okay kecuali ada meja kerusi macam haram.

dewan? ohh aku anggap college aku takda dewan ? why? yes manada dewan. pelik dewan dia. dewan kecil pun bukan. hahaha kesian kan.

sport facility okay ada. tapi tempat aku main derby takdak. shet!

okay so kepada orang orang yang maybe baca blog ni secara tidak sengaja. aku sarankan. janganlah masuk study sini. bukan apa. study dia. urm maybe okay tapi management sini sangatlah tidak okay! tidak percaya? masuk la sini. then baru nak cakap betul cakap aku ni. HUAHUHAUHAUAHAUAH

okay la weh. sekian. aku pun dah buntu pasal asgnment ! tadaaaa

pyps

good morning II

hehe good morning.

yeay friday is here.

but for sure got nothing to do la bhaa..

burh padahal. okay i have alot of assignment need to be done within two weeks include my exams.
how cool is that honey bunney ?!

leave that, and i cant wait going back home ! yeay yeay ! 1st nov is my flight to hometown. cheh macam jauh saja perjalanan kan. padahal 2 hours ++ jak pun . duhh~

and oh ! last night went to cocum awards 2011. banyak gila aku mau komen weh. tapi sabo je la. antaranya my college is so damn pathetic for not owning a hall. 1 dewan pun cukup la bha. tapi. hall dia. urm i rather not calling DKA1/1 tu hall oh. more like urmm. entah. sedihnyaa. when we have to stand at the back and the seat is sumpah limited weh. so not cool oh. persembahan well not that bad and i paling excited and paling best la that night punya show. itu china perfomance. walaweyyyy sumpah gila awesome plus cool. mcm step up 3 woo. serious weh. ! and then lakonan budak silat. funny ! instead c jebat was so handsome. even i dont know and for future incase i terserempak sumpah aku dah lupa muka dia. but 1 think, he is handsome boyyy.. dayummmm ! auummm! HAHAH gatal siaaall

sempat lagi aku berkirim salam dengan nya melalui my classmate c aiyu. hehehehe thank god jugak diax kenal aku. boleh la aku jadi secret admire dia. HAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH amboiiih gelak melampau. yela! sukaa! ahahaha

and oh! i saw jugak my no longer bf acah2. eh yeap. why? lollololol bz katanya and i dont want to disturb. but why makin keding. not handsome. hmmmmm! makan bebanyak lar weh. pakai baju cm tu comel kalau badan comel. oh oh lebih suda. sorry !

and playing derby at home was really awesome! naa siuk yea main. trus laa malar2 mau jatuh tapi okay jugak la. hehe :D

teda suda mau cakap.

ciao !

gagal

aku sepatutnya lebih tegas.
aku sepatutnya lebih garang.
aku sepatutnya lebih keras.
aku sepatutnya lebih marah.

dan paling penting.

aku sepatutnya lebih berani.

malangnya, entah la aku ni berani or what. i am so dissapointed with myself.

good morning !

eee best juga tau bangun awal2 pagi ni. hahah tapi part mau bangun tuu bhaa.. ededededehhh karau juga la mata. tapi selepas sudah siap mandi. fresshh sudah ! sampai ada hati mau update blog. yes. iknow lama suda nda update kan. hehe but idk why i feel healthy.! ahahaha best bha bangun awal pagi tapi matai laaaa mata !

and petang ne at 2 mau p buat assignment , dorang cakap senang tapi entah la. what ever it is i need to see the notes first :D

and urm pic ? well hari tu saya pergi malacca with boobies ! ahh i miss her ya knowww!! balik sudah dia tuk selama2nya p jb. haihh. i dont have much friend di sini and yeah :((

teda lagi kawan mau pigi makan mcD , karoke after mcD and drive thru after karoke . how sad ? no one lagi yang aku boleh paling annoying ? well with her , makes me feel like home. i mean thats me ! thats real me ! alaahh kamu tau jua bha kan all of us ada diff2 attitude when with friends, family, siblings and bla blah blaah. but with her. haihh i miss her ! damn !

and good thing is i cant wait to be her bridesmaid!! capat laaaaaaa . but but but ! i need to get lost alot of pound tau kaaaa. ehehehe nda lama lagi dia mau kawin but dengan syarat. she complete done the task i mean the housework in 2 months without fail any single day! woohooo. terrer la kau boobies! ahahahahahaha

naaaa.. heres the piccchhaa ! :DD

makan sini memang sedap ! :D

mukak baru mau high !

konon2 comel la. HAHAHA

and picha of the day ! paling saya sukak !

even kena marah. dilarang ambi gambar but whos scaresss! HAHAHA

and FOR SURE, IM GONNA MISS THIS BIATCH ! :((

pypy

trying and keep trying.

yea aku still trying untuk bermain derby dan aku xkan putus asa. wah ayat aku x boleh bla gila weh. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and akibat terlalu lama tidak masak nasi. sekali aku masak. kimbets terlebih banyak air. memalukan betul la. hmm

lepas tu pukul 8 mau p library. sah2 aku x sempat makan. haih. menyampah betul la. dengan sapa ? dengan aku la. tu la lambat lambat lagi. hmmm

karang x tau sapa yang mau teman aku main derby. haiyookk.. hmmm

okay la. mau masak and makan secepat mungkin ! later peeps !

:D

-.-

okay. its really been a while okay. i dint write and update my blog properly. weheeeewwww. why ? i dont have heart to write like yeah ! alot of things played on my mind and i kinda messed up. this is so sad. i dont know. i really want it bad and seems like no ones know how to work it out since all of us dont know what to do anymore since the path we take didnt work at all. haih.

what am i gonna do ? should i take this path along and do it like yah ?!

ohmyy.. this thing really messed me up deeply. yah deeply. i was dreaming to buy , to go this and do this. hahaha. but epic fail at all. shit weh. like seriously shhit !!! this is pathetic. hurm

hurraahh for the kepokaianess !

haha. nothing much

just my baby finally arrived !

yay !!

naa pic dia. heee

kopek gua weh. damn betul. tapi aku puas except part aku cepat penat and fed up. hoho. i hate me yaa kno !

okay saya hendak pergi bermain ! later ya guys !

pypy

voilaaaaa

hehe lama kan x update !

okay simple jak sini.

laptop rosak.
raya.
kinda bz with school stuff.
lepaking.
balik sabah for good.

and yeah.

picture??

alaaa nanti laah. banyak weh . tapi ngak ada kesempatan.

and oh. i got story for you to tell. sad story.

but when i got really damn good quality time.

ill share it to you guys kay?

and OHH ! I THINK I FOUND ALREADY MY SOULMATE :((


pyps

JB mariiii :))

assalamualaikum. :)

okay seperti yang anda maklum aku raya kat jb tahun ini for the first time ! yay or nay?!
and my dad kinda upset about it. dia boleh cakap aku mengada ? agak2 la raya kat college kau nak aku mati ke weh ? plus boobies pun okay about it. so ?! :)) whatever la abah.

and he dint call for 2 days sudah. marah betul dia :( am i bad daughter ? :(

okay exam was okay. i dont know lah kalau aku ada careless mistake ke hape ke kan. heee and hebat ! aku buat rambut aku. heeehe im feeling good and stylo except the itchiness betul betul buat aku bengang. haihhh -.- baru nak tahan tak bukak for maybe 2 or 3 weeks. but i dont think so weh. hehe. okay so heres the pichaaa !! tadaaaa

itu dia muka langsi ! hahahaha ganas tak ganas ?!

and kitaorang ada buat almond london and sumpah sedap weh. so conclusion : kita memang pandai buat kuih tapi malas ! :D

tadaaaa jadi kan jadi ?!!

lepas tu kitaorang pegi cs dan berbuka. !! :D p/s : aku tak puasa sebab peyod peyod.. wuuhuhuhuh lepas tu buat muka tak malu makan2 ice cream mcd. hehe

the food seriously was nyumeehh ! and baru aku sedar aku ne camwhore jugak . ahahah banyak lagi pic ! tapi tak payah la banyak2 ! hehe

and lastly. pic tunggu setarbakk !

yeay !!

toddles!

p/s : i miss you. yeah i do. but you never feel this way. thanks bye

post banyak banyak kauuuu !

errrrrrrrrmmm perut nda selesaaa :(((

nervous. my sistem dalaman seems not functioning well bha. sebab minum coffee indocapeeee banyak sangat ! capek deh !! haihh

tau ka. saya rasa sangat malas mau balik jb ohh. sangat sangat ! ohhh lord please help me.

8.30am got paper. haduii.

kejap la tukar baju apa segala. mandi ? saya suda mandi pukul 3 pagi tadi. perlu ka lagi saya mandi ? rasanya tidak kan. ?!!!! btw wangi juga bha ne saya kalau spray spray itu britney spears punya perfume ! HAHAH

gonna change itu apa orang panggil.? haihh saya pun tidak tahu. itu di atas tu bhaaa. ! macam telampau ganas. ssoo not represent me nih. burh padahhhaalll memang begitu la tu kauuu. HAHAH bodoh !

toddles !

nyumeeehh ! :DDDDDDD

HAHAHAH BIG GUILTY PLEASURE HERE. ~

I SUPPOSED STRUGGLING AND JUGGLING WITH MY ASSIGNMENT RIGHT NOW.

BUT THE MOOD IS NOT HERE RIGHT NOW.

AND THE WORST PART, I INDULGE MYSELF WITH DAMN DELICIOUSSSSS MOIST CHOC CAKE AND LISTENING TO JAZZ SONG AFTERLIFE SUNRISE. OHH MAII.. IM SLOWLY DRIFTING FROM MY REAL WORLD. SLOWLY FADING TO MY IMAGINARY WORLD. I LOVE IT ! IM FEELING LIKE SITTING ON THE STREET CAFE, CHILLING AND LOOKING PEOPLE WALKING AWAY AND DOING NOW. OH GOD. I AM SOOOO ENJOY TO DO THAT. LIKE SERIOUSLY. NO BORING IN MY DICTIONARY IF IM LIVING MY WORLD JUST LIKE THAT. SEE TOLD CHU. IM SLOWLYYYYY AND MOLLY DRIFITING WHERE THE REALITY CHECK IS IM ABOUT TO FINISH MY ASSIGNMENT THAT I DONT KNOW HOW TO DONE IT :| FUCK MY LIFE ISNT IT ?

AAHH JAZZ IS ALWAYS GREEN. I LOVE JAZZ EVEN IM NOT LISTENING TO IT ALL THE TIME. SEE MY CUTIE MEOW PUN ENJOY OKAYY. SHE'S SLEEPING OVER THERE. HOW CHILLING THIS SONG !!? AHH SUDDENLY I MISS WATERFRONT KK. SITTING THERE, WATCHING SUNRISE DOIN NOTHING. LISTEN TO THE WAVE. EATING BANANA SPLIT. DAMN..........!!! READING BOOK. WRITING ON MY JOURNAL BOOK. WALKING AROUND THE STREET. SMILING TO MYSELF RIGHT NOW. DAAA IM CRAZY. GUESS SOMEONE IS REALLY NEED A VACATION. WAIT FOR PTPTN THEN ILL FLY TO ANDY'S PLACE. HAHAHA MAYBE FOR 4 DAYS OR LESS OR MORE. WE'LL SEE. THEN MAYBE LABUAN ? AS MY BF ACAH2 WISHED? DID HE ? OR HE'S ONLY ACAH2 WITH ME ?


PYP

rindu !

jiwa tak tenang selagi aku tak update. HAHAHAH bongok kan. tapi betul weh. time pegang pencil tu macam ade yang kurang. yela kau dah niat kan. hehe

rindu ! yes ! rindu kat awak tahu. dah lama awak tak call saya. bz ke ? semenjak dua menjak awak dah jarang call saya. sedih tahu. dengan member member awak yang lain pon saya dah tak layan sangat. no more video call from you. no more every night calling from you. rindu tahu! oh maybe saya dah besar, grow up. bukan kah ini yang kau mau fifa ?? annoyance datang bila dia call kau. . HAHAH neeehhh padan la muka kau. haha or he was afraid to call me lagi ? HAHAHA afraid kenapa ? :( aiyoo tu la. time dia call kau buat tak endah, dahh dia x call baru kau tercari cari. kan ? lumrah manusia yang tak pernah bersyukur atas apa yang orang buat, kau tanak hargai, nanti dah dia tak buat baru kau tercari cari. aku selalu macam tu do. aku focus kat benda lain sedangkan benda lain tu tak focus kat aku and benda aku tak focus sangat tu lah yang focus kat aku. hehe faham tak ?!

its been like 2 and half years sudah bha. maybe ur sudah bored with me kan yang jarang sangat paying attention towards you. sorry ! tapi its okay la. maybe u got ur things to do jugak. i understand. or maybe its my time to call you back. okay ill do it later.

Ya Allah. meoww please la stop mengacau. i was typing bukan kau nak jadi army and kacau2 tangan aku. pleaseeeee !! :(

okay abah. i hope u'll read this ! but HAHA for sure your not gonna read my blog since my blog is not about politic in the first place ! hehe

okay member merefer kepada adik adik aku. :) sekian. ! HAHAH

mesti fikir boyfriend aku kan ?! HAHAHAH i think he's my truly boyfriend oh for now. yela . hidup single. so its good when my own dad jadi boyfie. hehehe. he's the best man ever before my husband. HAHAHAHAHAHAH

muchie love,
ur daughter !

it was okay ~

yes it was okay... errrrrkkk really not okay having break fast ! not because of food. actually it is because of food. today, went to beranang to eat tomyam there but we end up goin back to nilai since my favorite place sudah gone. yesss tinggal rangka suda idk what happened but my aunt said maybe they are doing some renovation. hurm maybe. i miss samina's food ! like hell yeahh ! :(

then went to q thai seafood and yes that place sudah full. watafaaakkk and then pegi sawadee . oh my. nice place but trust me sumpah service lambat macam harammm like seriously haram weh. watfaaaakk we have to wait for hour to get the food, obviously my aunt suda pissed of and fuck weh. the food not bad la. just the service yang lembab mcm haram membuatkan makanan kurang sedap. duhh~

haha dating with my acah2 bf since its been forever didnt dating with him. haha bz melampau bha dia. so i dont want to disturb jugak. im only his acah2 gf do. what do you expect? well acah2 will stay remain as acah2. :) :) i understand his feeling, sometimes saya pun macam tu jugak, out of the blue, im feeling like really wanna in relationship, but when i think deeply, it just my another feeling padahal im not ready to be in relationship. thats why i love having temporary feeling. :D HAHAH talked about my first and last love, i dont know why i still feel the pain. im feeling like crying but guess what. im too strong too hold on. yeay fifa !! oh my. i am so sad for what he have done to me. im feeling seriously dying inside. urghh forget and cut the crap fifa. seriously im okay just bila teringat tu. sumpah i was about to cry but malu laaa weh. ahaha booo thank god i can tahan2 my tear lagi. hehe

i really hope my ex will read this, tapi sumpah he wont. eee i hope u will feel what i feel someday. i really want karma to punch your in ur face and dick ! for sure, you gonna feel the pain. extremely pain. ! i dont hate you i dont know, but you know, you are the first man that really broke my heart. :( :( thanks for everything ! saya x kan lupa ohh the best moment we ever had. reading under 18 together2 and laughing macam bodoh. ! thanks !! sumpah weh x cukup lagi ne but enough is enough. im moving on like yeah. but betul la cakap orang. the pain.. hihihi its hard to leave. seems like it stay forever. :) unforgettable feeling tahu!


enough pasal stupido ex. eeeeeeeee i really wish i can erase him from my heart at this moment ! seriously God please help me. i really hope when i wake up in the morning, i dont have any memory with him aka his vanish from my mind and heart. please just please! :)

pypy :')

saturday boring

bosan ! nothing much to do since im waiting my aunt to come over here ! :)) we are going to break fast together ! :DD

so now im watching the keeping up with the kardashians marathon. memang tak bergerak aku and i like the reality show !

my bosan and busuk face ! LOL x mandi lagi. hehe blame the tv. HAHAH

HAHAH toodles !

makan makan !

HAHAH sumpah weh sampai sekarang aku masih kenyang gila gila. apa x. makan start dari berbuka sampai la pukul 10. haaaa mana kau cari. sumpah perut aku dah memboyot time tu. HAHAH

memang terbaikk la makan situ. HAHAHAHA okay pic ! *mood rajin tiba2 upload pic*

FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDD :))))

YEAY !!!! :D

lastly. aku beli baju ne ! HAHAHA comel x comel. janji aku suka ! :D

okayyy cukup for today ! wee~ penat aku tunggu upload punya pasal. grrrrrr


pypy

malam ini saya bengang

dengan siapa ? yes kauuu ! kauu lah ! grrrrr
aku bengang dengan kak fiza sebab aku call macam haram, tak angkat, tido mati betul. lepas tu pegi rumah dia. ketuk2 macam orang gila. jerit2 and still no respond. thank you la kak fiza ye . geram aku tahu geram !!
cakap nak main sama2 sat lagi kau tido melampau lampau. hesssh
kalau sekarang kau nak main memang tak ahh. -.-
dah pukul 10 and btw aku tak rasa dia akan bangun . hissh geram geram !
tanak kawan lagi kau do ! betul !

so aku confirm tak balik sabah. maybe lepas raya baru aku balik. itu pun kalau ticket ada. for sure memang ticket adalah. plus cuzzy aku pun tak balik. so erm i guess memang tak balik lah. heee well experience grows u kan orang bilang. betul ka ? HAHAHa. :(

okay la aku nak mandi jap lagi. nanti tulis tulis lagi. uwarrrgghh

pipi

di awal pagi.~

yes awal pagi betul. tapi kejap. bagi aku makan bun comel aku jap.
yes done. cepatkan. huahuahua. sebab lebihan aku bagi c meow makan. dia makan jugak.
yes bangun sahur simple je.
and thanks to you. yeah you sebab call.
another reason aku tiba2 update ne sebab aku tak tahu la ini coincidence ke hape ke.
but seriously. when i was like you know. writing about something bfore i go to sleep kan.
aku ada tulis tahu. if he's a good boyfie then he will call to wake me up. but then dia call do.
dah dua kali. or i need to tthink about it when macam mana arh ? urghhh.
maybe coincidence jak bha ne kan. so nothing to worried about lah jugak.
congratz !! HAHAHAHA
but still i dont see the good on you. adalah sikit. but too much little or aku yang mengada.
okay bye !

NO LIFE

i must say that is me right now.
oh how much i hate my life !
not that i mean, i wanna end up my life.
but being like this make me feel kinda stressful and so bla bla bla
i know this is temporary but do you know how much it bored when you got nothing to do at all.
trust me , i love to stay at home doing nothing but if ill be like this. surely im going to die.

but it is okay because i think i can still go on with this fucking feeling but !!!
watchout im going to burst my life. yes !!

just hold it on fifa. :))

but but !! last friday was awesome! bersocial saya dengan bagus. meet new like seriously new. thankgod jak im penniless if not, for sure we will goin to do some backpacking to somewhere. like seriously dude ! kau tunggu jak nanti. HAHAHA

till then i say wave wave~ STUPID


pyps

i guess not in the mood

to write or to talk anything. be back later once i found my soul back. chehh. padahal teda mood jak pun sebab kelaparan. HAHAHAHAH

erm roomate mengajak ke tesco . but what to buy there ? -.- hmmm

ikut jak lah. -.- zzzzzz


okay later.

p/s: i need someone to hug me now. . someone pls pls pls ? :(

i guess im just too sad or bla bla blaaahh.

sad ? actually im not it is more to hurt feeling. perasaan ku terluka. mengapakah.

its okay. i know how to heal myself :) like yeah !

almost setahun

yes ! almost setahun lagu yang aku request belum lagi dapat dapat siap. susah maybekan ? haha memandai jak kau fifa suruh2 request orang lagu, kalau senang nda pa jua. ini adeededed T_T biarlah tu. lupa suda kali dia kan. .

heehe see nda sangka ohh friendship aku dengan dia tahan like gila gila. thanks to facebook. oh no. thanks to chaer actually. manalah kau sekarang ne yea. takkan masih di rehab ? lolololol sabar lah yea. tu lah. dengan aku yang baik ne, ko nda mo. naaa pegi la kau sama itu ppuan and then bamm hilang khabar. alaa kau hilang khabar confirm2 la masuk rehab. hehe all the best sana sayang ! :DD

confirm confirm dia lupa tapi biarlah. apa kau ingat senang kah fifa mau cari guys yang ingat every single detail ? haha simpan angan kau tuhh weh. xkan ada punya. kau jak lah sorang2 ingat yea date date yang kau rasa comel. ffffuuuu u all guys ! :)

okay good night ! i know, hes never gonna find this. eeee geram nya saya. kenapa kau telampau bodoh ! bongok !

persoalan

persoalan nya disini. wahh straight to the point terus. teda bunga bunga lagi. ahaha jimat masa bha kan.

adakah anda percaya dengan soulmate ? dan apakah yang dimaksudkan dengan soulmate. HAHAHA

yes itu persoalannya. dan ya. aku percaya and maksud soulmate sorry aku tak dapat nak tulis kat sini.

kenapa aku percaya ?

ada something yang happened kat aku menyebabkan aku percaya, aku tak tahu aku mengalaminya or tidak but somehow i dont know. ahaha macam dia soulmate tapi rasanya urm it just another temporary feeling katanya. but im pretty sure that is not another temporary feeling tapi kata jaja just move on sebab tak gunanya orang begitu. how sad ? :D

its okay sebab bukan semua orang dapat bersama soulmate mereka. ada yang ditakdirkan hanya menjadi kawan dan ada ditakdirkan langsung tidak jumpa soulmate . how sad ? heee but somehow aku rasa soulmate aku ne, aku x dapat sama2 just stay as a friend. how sad ?

lepas tu. yang ini. yeah situation sekarang somehow aku dapat tengok yang itu bukan soulmate tapi aku pun tarak tahu. feel yea thats it. itu feel. :) tapi its okay. enjoy as long as you can. search as long as you can kan.

fuck this cough , confirm karang tido macam bahbi terbatuk batuk. i hate it i hate it !!!!!!!!!!


pyps

mimpi !

AKA NIGHTMARE ! what theeee.. i still can deeply remember and it was not good dream at all or i rather say it as nightmare. im blaming youu yeaaaa ! youu ! bf acah2 sebab selalu wish nightmare kat aku T_T

it was like i dont know. i was in a place with tons of people trying to get down but im stuck in the middle with all the people and next situation is , i live in somewhere which is so damn high and then im falling down because of when i looked down, kepala hotak jadi pening and yaaaaasshh aku jatuh and dead and lastly. i was sitting next to driver and suddenly driver tu cakap dia nak kencing and keluar macam tu je. while the car still moving and i have to take place but susahnya kereta dia moving ke bawah like seriously curam mahu mampus. and yeah. i managed to save it but saya mati terima kasih which i dont know why. bodo -.-

sampai sekarang saya masih terfikir and terfikir mimpi tu. and eee pelik oh what does it mean ahh ? yang driver tu yang nda boleh blah. ketawa ada. malu ada. takut ada. ehww nightmare is a just a nightmare doesnt mean anything at all bha kan. so its nothing la tuu T_T

selamat bersahur

yeaa hari ini entry dibuat pada awal pagi. pukul 6.15am. heehe nak tido tapi haduuiiiihh major problem aku disini ialah hidung. gatalllllllllllllllllllll gilak mau mampos. bersin bersin macam hapaa. then batuk2 yang melampau. thank god jugak la batuk aku nda menyerang time tido, if no, perghh memang aku maki maki jugak time tgh tido tu. aku peduli hapa.. sakit woo ! T_T then paling gross nya rasa tu batuk sangat lah tidak sedap sampai ada rasa bha batuk aku.. wah hebatkan.. nehh kamu ada ?!

please laa weh. i dont like dealing with all this sickness even sikit. tahu ka tidak best ! tidakk best ! i mean itttttt!! tolong lah. tolong laah. apa cara mau bagi hilang selsema and batuk yea ? makan ubat batuk ? or ubat selsema. takut bha aku nanti jadi hijau bha batuk aku tu. wakakakakkakakaka ehwww ! sial bodoooo. yaikkss.

oh entry kali ini jugak adalah untuk 18 ke atas sahaja since dia mengandungi unsur unsur menjijikkan. kepada tekak yang kurang kuat, adalah dilarang membaca entry ini sama sekali. sekian.

selamat berpuasa ! :D

who are you?

malas mau cakap panjang panjang since puasa and oh actually i lost my word since i got so many things came up in my mind on my way back to home from class.

i dont know. yeah. maybe your so damn good until you want to judge people . but trust me, judging people is not a good thing and yeah. or maybe i just got hit by karma. lol. but whos cares? i do care !!!!

i mean it is actually nothing. i know la bha you better than me, but doesnt mean kau cakap begitu will make you more better. i also have no right to judge you. but i dont know, maybe if he was joking that time, i will take that as nothing. but seems. i heard it. i mean its better for me to not to heard it. HAHAH talk behind me , i dont give a damn. but the major problem is i heard it. that is no good bha. i dont judge you and i dont thinking a bit pun to judge you. but why? ahaha and btw, you just know me my name, but do you even know me like seriously? no ur just my classmate and actually i dont even bothred by what are you saying just now. but i terasa gila doh. i sungguh tak menyangka people like u will judge . i thought u were different like others but. hm nevermind it. people make mistake. apatah lagi aku yang manusia alpa ni. its okay. i actually nda ambil hati pun but just idk maybe that time, he was like jwhfbsdhfsdhjfb entah entah ! malas mau cakap.

tapi apa yang aku mau cakap disini, aku sedar diri aku and aku tahu d mana aku berpijak and aku ndakan salahkan kau pasal apa yang sebutkan tadi just benda ini antara aku dengan orang kuat diatas tu. bukan kau. so, kau mau judge apa semua, i dont give a fuck tapi that is not a good thing to do. cukup la kau buat dengan aku, jangan buat dekat orang lain sebab ianya tidak bagus.

aku tahu benda ni kecik macam semut tapi aku tahu diri aku seorang yang gila sensitive that is why im telling you this even aku tahu kau takkan baca and jumpa punya blog ni. and at least i do more feel like thousand times better than aku on the way balik hostel. macam macam fikiran aku tadi. hurmm hee but thanks because i am kinda postive thinking punya person. cheeewahh. so i can control myself. and terima jak lah. yea. maybe apa yang dia cakap tu betul jugak kan. sapa lah aku ne , bukan macam dia. like seriously macam langit dengan tanah beza dia. bak kata kak fiza. ehhh no need la to tell that here. biar lah. haha

SELAMAT BERPUASA !

ohh is this a challenge to myself?

2 hidden meaning. yes. and i let youu ( macam ada pulak orang baca blog aku) to think about it. ( wahh rajin pulak kamu mau fikir kan. puiiii)

okay enough. terawih for the first time kat semenanjung. heee :D thrilled do ! haha yala. i got no one bha to ask to go with. then if yea pun mesti ada alasan this and that and this. at last aku nda pigi kan. hmm cant blame to them jugak. maybe saya yang kurang effort kan. who knows ! :D

and okay. fever is not a good thing. frankly speaking, it make my life miserable ! ohh please. aand thank god. my immune is kinda strong jugak kan. ahaha 1 night only i had worst fever. u know what is the secret ? mandi ( urgh i hate it !! lebih2 time pening badan panas. demmm) then makan , makan ubat. drink alot of water ( like me air cap badak aka cooling water sebanyak yang mungkin) tido selubung. for sure sat lagi bangun confirm berpeluh gila and by that time u will know that ur getting better. haha and then 100 plus ! yea it is helping alot maybe ?!

sore throat. im having sexy voice now so feel free to talk to me. HAHAHAH

okay . i always saw this. urghh i think. urm forget it :D

so later !

gila !

yeah. i cant believe myself di sabah suda. i know its not impossible , tapi kan macam massive dream oh and i need to slap my face whether im living in real life or it just another long long dream that i had.

all my lil cuzzy love to stay at my house. and ditengah malam macam ni, sumpah dorang suka bising2 and they love when i throw them to the bed like yeahh ! macam wwf kunun. terus lah jugak kan aku p membuang satu2 dorang. kesukaan betul and tadi baru jak siap mengacau2 and thanks. aku dah free and tengah update my blog. heehe exam ? wasssssssss urghh idk what to say and did i tell you that i am so ready to repeat the subject ? pheww~ agak la tension but what to do kan. idk i seems blur and i dont know how to answer and i know my answer was wrong and i yeah give up and just get out from that ffffuuuccckiinggg exam hall. sighh~

boobies fetch me and yeah we talked about her life, pity her. her life kinda messed up and its been a while i didnt talk to her face to face. hurmm . and i hugged her for the last time. yeah i know im goin to meet her jugak by next week but i do miss her. to do crazy thing with her.

and guess what.flight saya delayed adalah for 2 hours. watafaaakk weh :( sumpah penat tunggu and they gave us mineral water and silver bird fruit cake. instead giving us that food, why dont u give us the food serve in the plane for free? seriously 2 hours kot. muka sumpah ketat and trust me, not me only yang pissssssed off. ahahaha. and yeah i supposedly sampai 9.45pm but 9.30 baru gerak. seriously what theee weeyyhh. and because of this, i will think like 38530383 before naik firefly or others punya flight and unfortunately malaysia cuma ada 1 2 3 company jak. so mau nda mau terpaksa la kan.

i was seriously tired and yeah its hot in here ! mahu hujan bha ne. but idk when. sighhh. cepat la hujan. i cant wait !

and ohh my cipet is better now. no more luka sana sini and good news is he gaining weight ! ahh comel !

xoxo
pyps

matchiam matchiam

yess. macam macam okay. 1st skip class pasal well kesakitan perut semula jadi yang akan dialami setiap bulan oleh kaum hawa. then dapat meow baru. and she is soo damn cutie cuteee ! sukanyaaa. nama ? still tidak diketahui. hehe pic? akan d upload SOON :)

then, kipas rosak like hell. i mean bilik tu sudah jadi hell panas okay. dem. okay sorry. my long lost friend called, eh not really lost lah. ade je jumpa last 2 weeks tak silap. hhihihi.

apa lagi eh ? okay hilang akal kejap.

toddles ! :)

why am i so distracted ?

hurm, idk but i am so distracted by something that im unsure about. damn. this is not good man. oh my. why eh why ehhh ?

okay kinda frust sebab hajat dihati hendak menonton malaysia vs singapore esok. but, i checked the tix and yeah. sold out baby ! fuuuuuu

and then, apa lagi yea ? cant wait to get home for few days. please peyod. please dont come this month. i mean like seriously for this month. nda kesah lah for next month, 10 days non stop. idont care and i really mean it.

and guess what. somehow kan im thinking that im going to married this guy. i can see sudah their name, but i dont know which one. since now i am mingled mingle with this guy . and they got same nmae. oh my. is that the sign ? bahahahaha . cut the crap fifa. reading too much novel might also affect your brain bha. so bewareeeee ! :)) okay. memang aku merapu and yeah korang takkan paham. okbai

hahahahahahhahahaha okay later peeps.

you're the one that I don't want

heeeh okay guys itu buku novel yang habis suda aku baca. bahhhbi okay ending tak best sangat tapi bagi aku pengajaran bahawa even kau tengah umo 19 or 20. haha it could be your monkey love and i thought when i in that age, i will found my true love but obviously i am wrong. in this novel, he met nate when she was 19 and 10 years lost contact and after they come back together and finally found that nate isn the one. haha funny !

and the ending, lucy dint make it with nate but adam, another guy he met when she first time come to new york. okay laah. not what i expected since most of book i have read, the one will be stay forever but in this book, NO they didnt !!!!

okay since ahad ne rajin sungguh aku update. yela got nothin much to do kan. okay so for today. i am goin to study. yeah ! u hear me?! fifa is studying mannnn!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA good luck for me !

ciao !

ohh saturday ~

haihh. astro still x dapat2 lagi. bosan tahu ! tapi tadi tengok movie kat lappy roomate nancy drew and ratatouille ! :)) oh my , hebat tikus terror memasak tapi susah nak imagine kalau benda tu betul. but sumpah comel comelll ! sukaaaa

i think i discover my new talent that is melukis. ahaha i know rightttt.. so unbelievable ! yela mengaris menggunakan pembaris pun still fail. haha oh my. nda la yang talented betul bah. just kalau diasah mesti berbakat gila. ahahaa. perasan gila kau.

tadi kelas extra for SE idk whether i can pass or no :\ wheeeeww~

later

selamat berhari jumaat

sesungguh jumaat adalah hari yang paling mulia and bla bla bla. sorry aku takde lah petah berkata kata. hihih

nothin much. just baru siap makan maggi ho liao ! saja tukar taste :)) brrrrpp. xcuseee me :)

what else? tomorrow will be toughest day ever since i have to struggling dealing with the damn boredom ! :))

okay, thats all.

random shit !

LOL

i thought i was healthy enough to having life like this. drinking alot of water. but i reckon its a big no. drinks alot of water a day dint make your healthy but more to bloated. damn ! this is sad. thinking my life with this stupid fucking knee. i just so damn sad about it. i cant walk properly like i used to. i miss my old knee. ahahah damn u never know until u lose it. yeah that is very true now to me. i supposed being more careful towards it. but i just dont. farrrrkkk.

my friend said that im gonna be like this for a month. which i really dont like it . oh my. please please and pleaseeeeeeee i want to play badminton to lose my weight instead sitting reading books although it is good except not that healthy. i supposed secrete more sweat so that i know i am healthy strengthen my tricep bicep and anything ! but now ! all i can do is now, walk slowly and tempang tempang like fuck. seriously i dont really appreciate this !!

im feeling like going back home and find someone who knows how to urut my knee to tune up back my damn urat. please pleaase. i need to talk this to my dad :( but the tix seems dont allow me to going back home !! how i wish malaysia airlines is belong to my dad right now. but im just another passegers whos paying for the ticket . :(

i dont know.

sunday blues~

bored yeah thats me or my life. i dont know. judge me. LOL

haha hari ini nothing much aku buat except mendelete memorable msg :( haha although aku sedih tapi im happy cuz i can let go suda everything. yeah everything ! EVERYTHING !

went to as salam to buy some food. and yeah. new housemate is here. LOL its really funny when my roomate with confident says that the girl is ugly so no worries lah. tahu tahu junior dorang time sekolah menengah. bahaha how shame is that shame ? lolol i was smiling saw their reaction that time. LOL man. cici pn balik suda. and thanks ! because of her i managed to xray my knee then apa lagi. eat some good food. and yeah not that bored even still bored :) lupa mau update status. kejap ! yea done. except for making me fat fat fat ! hehe

and yeah finally i change my place to study, i mean back to the dulu dulu punya tempat which i used to study di tilam sabut ku. heehe and yeah. balik lah pergi situ. i really need a good semangat not lazybum for this sem :) ohh please help help !

after this, i wanna go to mandi and then urut2 for my lutut bin bangang then study. opps study ke ? hahahaha :) please im not joking yea. -.-

roller derby !

last thursday was our first training and guess what?! i injured my knee ! yeah they say its moving forward, but somehow i kinda scared i mean im thinking twice is this my right path ? or this is just another obstacle in order to become a great derby ?? uwaaaa.

i bruised all over my body and im the one who most falling down during the training. gaahh . nampak sangat aku niy lembik and my tricep is sumpah lemah okay. nak support my body pun susah. booo you gemuk.. im so sad lah. i need to train i mean i need to doing exercise from now on so my body will fit and yeah and bla bla bla.

and my first time hurt my knee and i told my dad and he's being kepoh and tell my aunt to come to my place to check on me and we did go to the doctor and scan my knee and nothing much hurt just ya know my urat need to be fix saja. and i need someone know how to urut my kaki but i found none so i guess im healing myself lah. Sob~sob~

and one more, i lied to my parents that i fell down on the floor but the truth is. ahaha and no way in hell im goin to tell them the truth since ohh emm geee i swear they will like scolding and non stop talking to me to not to attend the training anymore. i guess this is what i get for lied my mom and my dad kan. and even my siblings pun dint know the truth. i still dont have time to talk to them since i dont see them online. heehee

and by the way, i did told you guys kan yang training was awesome except saya bebal talingung still noob. sighh! i still cant make myself fall and when i fall, yeah thats it ! kebaaboom. i was worried too about my knee but thank god its nothing. ahahaha this is my first time and i guess all my muscle and urat and joint cartilage bla bla bla must be in shocked ! thats why laah kaki sakit and yela, tak pernah nak rasa injured kan. tu la pasal. heehee but trust meee ! i will ! even susah. aku nak jugak ! just 500 bucks tu idk where to find unless i dint eat anything for 5 weeks then for sure i can get it ! HAHAH :D

okay thats all for today. i am so much excited about roller derby ! weeehoo :D

give me everything tonight~

tahu kan lagu niyy? oh my. saya tidak tahu mengapa lagu ni kan remind saya dengan my sibs d sabah tu bah.. selalu dalam kereta mesti layan lagu sambil nyanyi lagu ni ramai2. :( best niyy. ketawa ketawa lagi. but now? me here dengan ketempangan saya :( damn ohh benci nya saya kaki begini. kenapa laahh. saya sudah semangat mau join this. but suddenly pulak kan. demmmm. ka ini one of the obstacle being a derby girl ? ahhhh kusut kusut ! then i lied to my parents lagik. uwaaa no good no good. buttt.. i really want this bhaaa.

and tomorrow my aunt will come to see me. sighh~ benci nyaaa.. harap harap ini sakit biasa biasa sajaa since aku suda makan ubat kena inject. like hell and that was my first time kena inject d pantat. siallllllllllllllll sedih oh saya begini. teda mood mahu study. wanna lay down and baring sampai saya mahu bangun. boleh ka begitu ? tapi saya tengah menguatkan semangat niy. pleasee i really need some strength to hold on :( benci nya sayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

empty

itu adalah apa yang aku rasa sekarang. padan muka aku or patut kasihan kan aku ? aku tak tahu. yang penting aku rasa kosong dan aku hanya merasa sedih. hari ini hari takda english word for myself. so fully bm la konon. heehe

agak lama kan aku menyepi diri. sebab? aku balik sabah and kat sabah. even internet connection tak macam haram kat sini, tapi masih lagi aku tak online. aku duduk, tengok tv, carik pasal dengan adik2 aku, round2 membakut, lepaking dengan sedara aku, walaupun bosan, tapi okay lagi lah. kadang kadang kita perlu jugak merasa bosan and bosan kat sabah, tak macam bosan kat sini. sini aku terasa terkurung, tak tahu nak pergi mana. oh myyy. sedihnyaa :( hmm

aku tak tahu. apa punca nya aku jadi macam ni. sighh~ maybe aku fikir banyak sangat kot. khamis ne aku kena pegi subang, and then aku try nak cari keja for every weekends. sighh~ i dont know. :(

okay la . later

LOL

seriously im all alone now and running of time. all alone here.i dont know what to do. this stressing me up. urghh where is my next destination ? if im all alone now. sdjkfhsdjhfdjfh

i thought i can chilling with my biatch but her mom is really super strict and freaks me out. oh my goooddddddd.. not good not good. i dont have any friends here because all them was bz and i was oh my stuck in the middle of no where. where am i goin to change clothes ? ahaha im thinking something stupid bha ne. but my friend pun not sure about this so siapa yang akan take me ? so next plan. hmm im thinking of chilling at the waterfront. weee~ alone. duhh! pretty sickk huh !

oh my god. my dady is calling and thank gooodddd ! haqhaha he just said jangan jalan jalan padahal i think he know the truth that saya akan bejalan jalan. waakakakak oh my. i wanna laugh im being so shiall disini kan. urghhh haihh i hate being alone here. haih but thank god. i can express what i wanna say here by writing. hm honestly i feel so much better , see how writing cn affect your life. hihihih :DD hmm i think thats all lah for tonight. i need to pee or else i burst it out here. i got like 9 mins left. wtf cepat betul masa berlalu ohhkaayy . toodless !

much love,
pypachan

LOL

seriously im all alone now and running of time. all alone here.i dont know what to do. this stressing me up. urghh where is my next destination ? if im all alone now. sdjkfhsdjhfdjfh

i thought i can chilling with my biatch but her mom is really super strict and freaks me out. oh my goooddddddd.. not good not good. i dont have any friends here because all them was bz and i was oh my stuck in the middle of no where. where am i goin to change clothes ? ahaha im thinking something stupid bha ne. but my friend pun not sure about this so siapa yang akan take me ? so next plan. hmm im thinking of chilling at the waterfront. weee~ alone. duhh! pretty sickk huh !

oh my god. my dady is calling and thank gooodddd ! haqhaha he just said jangan jalan jalan padahal i think he know the truth that saya akan bejalan jalan. waakakakak oh my. i wanna laugh im being so shiall disini kan. urghhh haihh i hate being alone here. haih but thank god. i can express what i wanna say here by writing. hm honestly i feel so much better , see how writing cn affect your life. hihihih :DD hmm i think thats all lah for tonight. i need to pee or else i burst it out here. i got like 9 mins left. wtf cepat betul masa berlalu ohhkaayy . toodless !

much love,
pypachan

im home

but idont know why im feel ao fuxcking sad. just done with crying. and i swear i love my mom. its all about my mom now. i dont know what to say. sleep . later

out of mood.

like seriously , internet connection rise my temperature more than usual. i dont know why all of this suddenly happen which i really not appreciate it. fuck it man like seriously fuckkkkk itt ! i really wanna do my assignment, lord please give me strength where i still got assgnment need to be done and submit bfore the holiday. sighh~ im not liking this sem for sure. T_T

so what am goin to do now ? T_T fuuu fuuu !

okay. study for tomorrow exam. print c haris punya redo assignment. and pak karim. the other two assignment of pak karim will be done before thursday maybe? LOLOLOLOLOLOL i wanna kill myself. okay bye. is it normal to get sleepy in time like this? T_T not normal since my dad always screaming my name when i was about to sleep time like this. nogood huh !

messed up.

okay akhir akhir sebelum sem berakhir ni la aku sumpah messed up. which i ate like a lottttt. ! my bowel movement is sooo fucked up. i really dont know what the hell is going on with my stomach. i ate a lot but is my stomach really kept all the left food? and if yeah then ill be dead because i will gain my weight like alot alot a lott ! oh man. this is stressing me up.

while im still dealing with the fucking assignment and im not scare to blame the lecturer because giving me pressure as hell. the assignment should be release but the lecturer keep giving excuse !print habis lah. itu la ! ini lah. while the redo thinggy also make me wanna maki the hamun muka all the lecturer. or it is my fault juga kan. but what ever !! sjkfhsdfjkhfgjfhdgjfhdg

tomorrow is my last paper, but im giving my full attention to the assignment and not the upcoming paper. i dont have mood to talk . whats on my mind is just finish the assignment and then i want to relax like seriously relax. ohhh im so stressed up! help helpp!!