sleepyhead

hehe sebelah aku. jejari adik aku jugak sibuk menyusun ayat untuk blog nya.
heeehee.

tapi aku mempunyai sikap yang agak pelik dimana aku tidak suka orang membaca post yang aku tengah tulis ni.
aku prefer dorang baca after aku officially post.

okay back to the title.

i am so sleepy okay! i dont know why but my eyes is so damn heavy right now. urghh.
rabu i am goin to meet nani kee. idk whether the plan still on or not. hmmph.
lepas tu.

semalam. yea. hari yang gila. malam yang penuh kegilaan. risiko nya bakal diketahui.
aku hanya mampu berserah.
sepertinya aku semakin getting lost.
aku tidak suka akan diri ini.
this is not me.
what should i do to change myself?
i have the niat but my body wont let me. aka the devil has controlled my body. fully!

and heeee. talking to him makes me feel like dkjhfsjdhfskjdhfsjkdhf
idk. but my heart somehow is smiling.
icant wait to meet him next month.
he's been busy and he is sick.
i dont know. but i hope. he stay as one one person. u know what is the meaning?
let it be.
like ada jak orang baca. but sadly none. :)

and u know what?! i called him like thousand and fuck he asked me to call tomorrow. and guess what. he was sick and take med. HAHAHAHAHA and im disturbing him. HAHAHAHAH
i am so.. hurmm
and i told him that i went to the club. and he says im stupid. and dont ever do that again. and he asked about my mom. im sure darling. i will be grounded after this. and that will be the first and last partay for this month.
seriously i go crazy ! yes! you may ask my friend.
omigossh.
thats how we get wasted.
hihihihih

and up until now, i dont have the happy stomach. :(

but good news here.
i finally can controlled my feeling towards him.
i dont really look for him anymore.
im waiting him to call and i dont give high expectation. he is working. and kinda bz.
and hes not like me. so i have to understand lah. hmmm

but im totally okay. okay fuck. i should call m.a to talk to him.
but can i say if im scared of his words that might affect my mind?

pypy