hikhik

LOL andy was asking me why he cant see my blog anymore.
iwas like acting comel and suprised eh really arh ? i didnt know pun.
padahal...

i dont change the setting to private anyway.
just i change the url. so no one will can read this. except my follower.

i think i already mention about this kan?
why should i keep saying about this? sakai.

well i have this in my mind.
he was calling me while im at the grandma's .
so obviously i cant pick it up.
so i let the phone ringing.
and just now i texted my friend and asking about this.
he said. see he will call you. and let him call 3 to 4 times.

but my heart say. call him back. yeah.
but until now. i still dont have the gut to call him.
so many things i wanna say, but i know when i call him. all the things will stays forever in my head.
and at the end of conversation, i will regret because things i wanna said i cant say it loud. it just pathetic me. i hate myself. yes. iam

i should be me ! :(