okay my english so like fucking sick. im sorry for that. :D

nightmare

yes. nightmare semalam sangat mengerikan. i dont know why. my mind suddenly sharp straight to this man. yes. that man. i dont know what is the meaning of my bad dream.

he the one who make my eyes go blind. how ? by the sparkle of the glass. until when i try to closed my eyes, my nightmare continues by the sparkle. and i cant close my mind. it took about 30 mins to convince my eyes its okay. it just another nightmare. and i even write my worries in a paper, and guess what? it really work. damn work ! huh. thank god. this is crazy? what is happening ? am i into to him ? eeehhhh like seriously? no waayy. i think the way he done to me make me go into for him.

i know the way of him is totally debunked but heyy we dont know. sseee how part of me really tries to back him up. hmmmm

this is crazy. tell meh. this is another temporary feeling? HAHAHAHAHA

but why dont we just try ? if its not working. theres must be someone out there that is right for us. expect less! no worries. stop imagining! :D simple ! :D

pypy

ahh i can feel his smell of perfume. damn nice wehh. ahahahaha i loike people with good smell. urrrmm nyumeehh !

stressquote

betul betul terkena pada batang hidung aku sendiri! toink toink ! -oo-

credit to twitter!

write down everything your worried about and then read it before you go to bed.

damn ! tapi kalau tulis bukan makin teruk kaaa? i hope. hurm. nevermind.

but then first think first, apa yang saya worry kan ?

my mind dont have the answer? i think i need friends and fun to vanish this worry ! hurmm..

okay let me tell you. my worry is what should i do when he asked to meet me? haiyo.
my worry is what should i say to avoid from meeting him?

haha i guess that two thing is my major worry. stupid kan!

trust me

this stupid fear-ness feeling will go away someday !

all is well.

i actually feel ashamed to ask forgive-ness from Allah because of what ive done.

actually it is not like im doing something big. or aka im just being kepoh and mengada mengada okay?

but idk why. everything seems so wrong right now.

i know i need to ask Allah to calm myself down. but i know He wont help me. i know He must feel betrayed. im sorry! :(

really sorry. i swear i just wanna have fun and things turn to be like this. 180degree !

i got my lesson learn here. just party with your friends. yes ! just them ! no need anyone else.

mini heart attack when he called me. the yaff man !


T_T

buddy :)

thanks to my boyfriend ! after talking to him. i feel more better and relieved. he helped with his useful suggestion and opinion. i do appriciate it george ! thanks to for being there when i need someone to talk. and lucky u. you will not get pregnant. thats why u can have have and have fun !

thanks george ! thanks ! sumpah aku rasa macam phewwww~

actually i think i know the main point is. im struggling with my friends. i mean i know i am afraid what if they talk back about me ? i know surely they'll do. but just remember. this is about yourself and the themselves. so if my friends not involved in it. i dont care if they wanna sibuk2 pasal my hal. talking or mengumpating. i dont care anymore. i dont have time to shut everyone's mouth. :)

just live the life. macam c rihanna cakap dalam lagu cheers(drink to that)

Life's too short to be sittin' round miserable
People gon' talk whether you doing bad or good, yeah!

betul tu kan ! so nda payah la fikir apa yang dorang fikir. lantak dorang la ! janji kau cherrrrrrrrrrrrrssss !

i think i didd something wrong.

yesss. thats it. i think i did something. i did take it. i do have the choice. leave it or take it and the most stupid part is i take it! whats was on my mind ?! awww shit man !

this is super not right. urgh. im seriously going to die. oh maiigaaaadd.. shitt man ! so shit mann!

and now, i cant even stop from not thinking about this. the most stupid thing i did ever. i really wanna burst it out. i dont have anyone to tell like seriously. now, i need my boobies. she knows everything i guess. im so scared. i have assignments. exam. ya Allah, aku tahu aku dah melakukan kesilapan besar, perbaiki aku dan bagi la aku kejalan yang lurus dalam menempuhi hidup ini. this is not what i want. seriously. shit la shit !!

i can die to think about this ! :((

actually this is not that hard as you guys think. i do have choice what to do. ! first, appear in his life and then yea dissapear. or dissapear forever! i really can do that. many things and thought running in my mind. shit!

and the most important is, i need to take this easy! yes supper easyy! just go with another pretty liars. i dont want to attend his fucking pp. seriously. i just wanna stay here and chill. shit la wey. haih. so what im going to do is to call him suddenly and say something so that he knows you really cant attend the fucking pp! lololololol

i am seriously doesnt care if he's alot of money like seriously. i dont give a damn about it. but. naaah i think i made wrong choice and move. i cant undo this but i have to move forward without any regret feeling. please

LITTLE BITCH

THIS LITTLE BITCH AAH. I DONT KNOW WHY, BUT I CAN FEEL THAT SHE IS GOING TO DOWN.
SHE IS SO DAMN STUPID.
YOU FREAKY RETARD BIATCH.
STOP WHINING AND COMPLAINING ABOUT EVERYTHING.
PLEASE BE GRATEFUL JUST FOR A WHILE YOU STUPID BITCH.
TRUST ME, YOU DONT EVEN LOOK CUTE WITH THIS PERSONALITY.
DONT CHU HAVE BETTER ISSUE BESIDES YOUR FREAKING LAME ISSUES?
TRUST ME, YOUR ARE SO VILLAGE EVEN YOU LIVE IN THE CITY.
YOU FREAKING LITTLE BITCH, ITS TIME TO GROW UP.
DONT RUINED YOUR SECOND CHANCE.
AGAIN, PLEASE THINK FOR YOU FUTURE. DONT BE STUPID. FOLLOWING YOUR STUPID KAMPUNGAN FRIENDS TO HAVE FUN.
U DO HAVE FUN, BUT REMEMBER THE WORD 'LIMIT' LIMIT YOURSELF YOUR MOTHERFUCKER STUPID LITTLE BITCH.

THANK YOU.

OR SHOULD I SAY THAT, YOUR FAMILY IS A STUPID PEOPLE? RELY YOUR DADS MONEY DIDNT BRING YOU TO ANYWHERE. SOMEDAY, HE WILL DIE AND ALL THE MONEY HE LEFT FOR YOU WILL FINISH SOMEDAY JUST LIKE THAT. TRUST ME.

NO PARIS. JUST STAY AT YOUR HOME AND BE STUPID PATHETIC PEOPLE.

IM JUST SAYING AND REMIND YOU WHERE YOU SHOULD STAND RIGHT NOW.

FUCK YOU BOYFRIENDS AND FRIENDS. THEY WILL NOT HELP YOU IN THE FUTURE. MARK MY WORDS. MAYBE SOME OF THEM, BUT LUCKY YOU IF YOU FOUND THE REAL FRIENDS.


THIS IS SPECIAL FOR YOU. FOR THOSE WHO FEEL MINIHEART ATTACK AND THIS POST STAB YOUR HEART.
BEWARE, MAYBE THIS IS SPECIAL JUST FOR YOU.

HATE ME? IM DONE MY JOB AS A GOOD FRIEND EVEN I DONT SHOW IT IN THIS POST. :)

PYPS

SATURDAY

my aunty is on her way from kl to meet me.
reason: we are goin to nilai 3 to see something that can we spent on . lolol.
no la actually, we are goin there to buy the bunga telur for what? im not sure.
and today i have class since this is the last of study week for this sem thats mean, the sem is about to end ! and guess what? its almost november which is we almost say goodbye to 2011 and hello to 2012.

suprise huh ? me too.
i dint know time goes so damn fast just like this.
i dint know whether i achieved something for this year.
or it just the same as previous year which ive done nothing. NOTHING AT ALL.

pathetic huh? yes. i know. and u guys knows too.

im about to finish my sem which still got year to go.
HAHA that is also mean i will be the senior! hehehehehhe
cant wait for that !

but here, theres no such thing called senior and junior. all of us is the same.
which the life here is totally different with the uni life. sumpah !!
wanna know why? i suggest you guys to not to go here. you dont have life.
you just have to study and the social life? urmm i think all of us figured it out without anyones help.
which mean, the more you friends. the easier for you to social.
and vice versa.

my aunty is about to reach here. so i better end my words here.

p/s: i am so fucking sorry if i didnt put some words because it just me. i am like that.
so babi kan ? no i dont know, it just when you in eager mood to type until u missed words. and when i read back, i also cant understand what am i trying to say. HAHAHAH

so toddles guys!


enjoy your saturday !


xoxopypy

COLLEGE IV

HOT HOT PANAS PANAS !

OKAY COLLEGE DIGEMPARKAN. OPSS TAKDE LA GEMPAR MANA PON. ORANG2 SARAWAK JE GEMPAR KOT? AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

MAU TAU APA ?!

HAFIZ NENONENO TU DATANG COLLEGEE.. WWUUUUUUUU

WHY ? WHY ? EH WHY EHH ? :DDDDDDD


JENGJENGJENGGGG !

INI ADALAH DISEBABKAN HAFIZ AWAN NENONENO TU STUDY SINI. I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FFF WEHH. WHY HERE ?! WHYYYYYYY ? MACAM AKU PULAK YANG MAU MATI BHAAA . DOII TOLONG LA BERGAMBAR GAMBIR DORANG YEA. HAFIZ . HMM -.- OKAY FINE.

DENGAR2 ADIK DIA AMBIK COURSE ART AND DESIGN. AGAIN ! WHYYYYY HERE ?! WHYYYYYY?!! LIM KOK WING DO BETTER OH FOR REAL THAN HERE. WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!! -.- KASIHAN SUNGGUH KEPADA MEREKA. HMMMM

COLLEGE NE. SUMPAH WEH. MANAGEMENT MACAM HARAM. SUMPAH. AKU TAK TIPU. HAIYAAAAAA.. AKU PUN MANGSA MANAGEMENT JUGAK. KESIHAN WEH. DAMN !!!

TAPI APA2 PUN. SELAMAT DATANG KEPADA ADIK HAFIZ YANG BAKAL BELAJAR DISINI. EH DAH REGISTER DAH PON. KRIK KRIK KRIK.

DAH TU DATANG TIME TAKDA AIR PULAK. BETUL2 SPOIL OH. KALAU AKU. AKU TARIK BALIK OHH. PINDAH COLLEGE. HAHAHAHAHAA

ITU AKU! MEMERLUKAN MESIN PEMUTAR MASA RIGHT NOW !


PYP

COLLEGE III

OKAY SEKARANG TENGAH BERADA DI COLLEGE LIBRARY. HOHOH

TENGAH RUSHING NAK SIAPKAN ASSIGNMENT ENGINEERING DESIGN.HAIYOO

OKAY PROBLEM TERBESAR YANG DIALAMI AGAK2NYA SEMUA BUDAK COLLEGE LEGENDA IAITU JENGJENGJENG !!!!!!!

COLLEGE TIADA AIR.

WHAT THE FUCK KAN. RUMAH AKU BARU TADI TENGAHARI TAKDAK AIR.
TAPI AKU DIFAHAMKAN ADA LAGI BLOK YANG SUDAH 2 HARI TAKDA AIR.
AND ADA YANG MENJADIKAN ALASAN INI UNTUK TIDAK PERGI KE KELAS EKORAN MASALAH AIR.
HAHAHAHAHA

AGAK LA WEYY. NASIB BAIK KELAS AKU PAGI AND ADA AIR, SO SEMPAT LA MANDI. HIHIHIHIHI

APE LAA COLLEGE NI. TAK BAYAR BILL KE HAPE.

ECEHH TAKDE LAH. MASALAH NI MEMANG SUDAH AKAN BERLAKU PASAL ADA PENYELEGARAAN APA TAH. HAHAH.

TAPI ATLEAST INFROM LA AWAL2 KAN.

COLLEGE! URGHHH NGOKNGEK DUSH DUSH.

OKBAI BATTERY LOW !!

PYPS

COLLEGE II

HAHA kelewatan akibat kesibukan tentang assignment membataskan diri ini untuk meng-update pasal college !

okay. highlight hari ini =pelajar junior perangai macam senior=

okay lebih bahasa kasar, berlagak.

itu yang aku perasan student junior nowadays. hehehe tak percaya. contoh terdekat, budak sarawak bawah rumah aku. perghh dia punya perasan berlagak bajet hot. rambut panjang, selim. pandang pun pelik2 then kau tau tak instinct kau selalu betul . yes. hari2 nak melepet bawah bblok. kalau duduk kat lantai tu bersih takpe. ni cam harem. kotor gila kot lantai blok tu. HAHAH eww.

semalam aku turun, pandang orang pelik2 dengan boyfriend dia tu. tahu la kau ada perlindungan dari KAKAK SENIOR kaurang ! HAHAHAHA kakak senior merangkap kawan bekas housemate aku. yaaaiii geli2 aku kalau ingat balik perangai dorang.

tahu la kau senior.bajet gila. menyampah aku. aku bukan lah nak cakap aku paling baik disini. ini blog aku. suka hati aku nak menzahirkan apa yang terbuku di hati aku ni kan. HAHAH

p/s: kepada budak junior, jangan nak bajet senior sangat lah wey. trust me, nda kan pergi mana juga dengan attitude begitu. harap2 kamu sedar awal sebelum terlambat. :)

pyps

HUJAN

cepat lahhhh hujan. !

menyesal aku makan maggi tadi, terus lah mengantuk tahap cipan bha saya. shett oh shett! in need of caffeine right now ! nenonenoneno *after this aku buat lah.

ka hujan yang menyedapkan lagi suasana sampai aku mo tidur ni. aiyorrkk.

semalam kan. saya suda bagi cerita ka yang my siblings d sabah kasi gotcha call sama saya ? kalau belum meh saya cerita.

adakah time tu baru balik dari derby2. sekali ada 4 misscalled then call balik la, sekali tu, iza yang cakap , dia bilang tangan c azri patah sebab main longboard and baba nda tau. takut kena marah. trus aku cakap la pigi la hospital, dlang nda payah sebab suda beli concrete. well fyi adik aku 2 ekor kembar tu st john so maybe dorang a bit la kali kan. terus dorang p concrete tu tangan. .

i was like astagaaaaa.. panic jua la sekejap. then google2 pasal broken arm la apa benda la semua. dapat juga input sikit. ahaha terus call balik cakap sama adik saya, tanya which tangan yang patah. then kanan. i was like maaagossh sudah lah mau spm, kalau baba tau confirm habis dibising. then aku, tiba2 adik aku c azri mo cakap, dlang tangan dia sakit weh, patah ne bengkak, terus dia cakap lagi ada 1 benda trus la GOTCHA !!!!!!! farkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk weh..

ketawa2 dorang kesukaan aahh. actually nda la patah, just luka tapi agak besar lah. mau tgk naa p la fb dia yea. hmmmmm..

apa lagi aku mau cakap ne ? mengantuk bha ne. habis idea sudah. shit oh T_T

pyp

ASSIGNMENT MADNESS

HEHE OKAYY.

currently dekat mcD tengah struggle menyiapkan assignment. eh ? struggle ke ? hihihihi

agak la. tapi actually part aku tu takde la bz sangat. dorang2 tuh yang banyak. hehe

mengantuk ada, kenyang ada. apa lagi. hhmmmm.

tapi still after this, ada 2+2=4 lagi assignment dalam kiraan.

then kena hantar before 1 november. aku bukan macam roomate aku. -.- ayorrkkk habis la ini macam deiii.

hmm anyways,somewhere somehow. ada picture for u guys !

cik aiyu kita tengah senyum dengan jayanya. oh. shes my another team member for this assignment group :D

yes 2 ketul ni jugak my team members merangkap classmate aku. :D

and finally muka aku yang harem. happy la konon dapat ayam mcD :D

okay aku kena siapkan sikit kerja aku ni sebelum dapat membaham ayat mcD aku oh yeah !

pyps

COLLEGE I

hehehehehe hello guys.

kenapa college ?

well tadi bha kan time dalam toilet tengah mencuci kain pakai tangan kan, tiba2 aku dapat ilham mau tulis pasal college. so sekarang ne aku akan menggosipkan tentang college aku. bukan college, tetapi student2 d college. HAHAHHAHAHAH

orang lain post pasal artist. kali ni aku tolong budak2 college aku jadi artist. nak bajet hot sangat kan ! :D

okay jom bermula gossip gossip.

eh tapi hari ni, aku hanya akan bagi pengenalan tentang college aku. hehe so student2 hot bersabar yea.

okay saya study di LINTON COLLEGE UNIVERSITY, AKA KOLEJ LEGENDA yang banyak makan duit tipu. i call it as duit tipu. :) ikut suka korang mau panggil duit apa. oh forget it pasal duit. ianya terletak d mantin, negeri sembilan. yea. bukan banting, tapi mantin. everytime orang tanya study mana, mantin. haaa? banting. gossh why so pekak laa dei. MANTIN! okay? aku ambik jurusan mechanical engineering. dont worry aku tak pandai. haaa tuu haa assignment aku berlambak jugak tak buat lagi. bukan apa. malas. tahu2 la kalau orang terpaksa, semuanyaaa hurrrmm. so better lambat2. opss.

okay college ne facility urmm korang datang sini then nilai laaaa sendiri. tempat tinggal dia okay best sikit. bukan macam asrama kena kongsi sampai 6 7 8 orang.

kelas dia. okay kecuali ada meja kerusi macam haram.

dewan? ohh aku anggap college aku takda dewan ? why? yes manada dewan. pelik dewan dia. dewan kecil pun bukan. hahaha kesian kan.

sport facility okay ada. tapi tempat aku main derby takdak. shet!

okay so kepada orang orang yang maybe baca blog ni secara tidak sengaja. aku sarankan. janganlah masuk study sini. bukan apa. study dia. urm maybe okay tapi management sini sangatlah tidak okay! tidak percaya? masuk la sini. then baru nak cakap betul cakap aku ni. HUAHUHAUHAUAHAUAH

okay la weh. sekian. aku pun dah buntu pasal asgnment ! tadaaaa

pyps

good morning II

hehe good morning.

yeay friday is here.

but for sure got nothing to do la bhaa..

burh padahal. okay i have alot of assignment need to be done within two weeks include my exams.
how cool is that honey bunney ?!

leave that, and i cant wait going back home ! yeay yeay ! 1st nov is my flight to hometown. cheh macam jauh saja perjalanan kan. padahal 2 hours ++ jak pun . duhh~

and oh ! last night went to cocum awards 2011. banyak gila aku mau komen weh. tapi sabo je la. antaranya my college is so damn pathetic for not owning a hall. 1 dewan pun cukup la bha. tapi. hall dia. urm i rather not calling DKA1/1 tu hall oh. more like urmm. entah. sedihnyaa. when we have to stand at the back and the seat is sumpah limited weh. so not cool oh. persembahan well not that bad and i paling excited and paling best la that night punya show. itu china perfomance. walaweyyyy sumpah gila awesome plus cool. mcm step up 3 woo. serious weh. ! and then lakonan budak silat. funny ! instead c jebat was so handsome. even i dont know and for future incase i terserempak sumpah aku dah lupa muka dia. but 1 think, he is handsome boyyy.. dayummmm ! auummm! HAHAH gatal siaaall

sempat lagi aku berkirim salam dengan nya melalui my classmate c aiyu. hehehehe thank god jugak diax kenal aku. boleh la aku jadi secret admire dia. HAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAH amboiiih gelak melampau. yela! sukaa! ahahaha

and oh! i saw jugak my no longer bf acah2. eh yeap. why? lollololol bz katanya and i dont want to disturb. but why makin keding. not handsome. hmmmmm! makan bebanyak lar weh. pakai baju cm tu comel kalau badan comel. oh oh lebih suda. sorry !

and playing derby at home was really awesome! naa siuk yea main. trus laa malar2 mau jatuh tapi okay jugak la. hehe :D

teda suda mau cakap.

ciao !

gagal

aku sepatutnya lebih tegas.
aku sepatutnya lebih garang.
aku sepatutnya lebih keras.
aku sepatutnya lebih marah.

dan paling penting.

aku sepatutnya lebih berani.

malangnya, entah la aku ni berani or what. i am so dissapointed with myself.

good morning !

eee best juga tau bangun awal2 pagi ni. hahah tapi part mau bangun tuu bhaa.. ededededehhh karau juga la mata. tapi selepas sudah siap mandi. fresshh sudah ! sampai ada hati mau update blog. yes. iknow lama suda nda update kan. hehe but idk why i feel healthy.! ahahaha best bha bangun awal pagi tapi matai laaaa mata !

and petang ne at 2 mau p buat assignment , dorang cakap senang tapi entah la. what ever it is i need to see the notes first :D

and urm pic ? well hari tu saya pergi malacca with boobies ! ahh i miss her ya knowww!! balik sudah dia tuk selama2nya p jb. haihh. i dont have much friend di sini and yeah :((

teda lagi kawan mau pigi makan mcD , karoke after mcD and drive thru after karoke . how sad ? no one lagi yang aku boleh paling annoying ? well with her , makes me feel like home. i mean thats me ! thats real me ! alaahh kamu tau jua bha kan all of us ada diff2 attitude when with friends, family, siblings and bla blah blaah. but with her. haihh i miss her ! damn !

and good thing is i cant wait to be her bridesmaid!! capat laaaaaaa . but but but ! i need to get lost alot of pound tau kaaaa. ehehehe nda lama lagi dia mau kawin but dengan syarat. she complete done the task i mean the housework in 2 months without fail any single day! woohooo. terrer la kau boobies! ahahahahahaha

naaaa.. heres the piccchhaa ! :DD

makan sini memang sedap ! :D

mukak baru mau high !

konon2 comel la. HAHAHA

and picha of the day ! paling saya sukak !

even kena marah. dilarang ambi gambar but whos scaresss! HAHAHA

and FOR SURE, IM GONNA MISS THIS BIATCH ! :((

pypy

trying and keep trying.

yea aku still trying untuk bermain derby dan aku xkan putus asa. wah ayat aku x boleh bla gila weh. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and akibat terlalu lama tidak masak nasi. sekali aku masak. kimbets terlebih banyak air. memalukan betul la. hmm

lepas tu pukul 8 mau p library. sah2 aku x sempat makan. haih. menyampah betul la. dengan sapa ? dengan aku la. tu la lambat lambat lagi. hmmm

karang x tau sapa yang mau teman aku main derby. haiyookk.. hmmm

okay la. mau masak and makan secepat mungkin ! later peeps !

:D