im home

but idont know why im feel ao fuxcking sad. just done with crying. and i swear i love my mom. its all about my mom now. i dont know what to say. sleep . later

out of mood.

like seriously , internet connection rise my temperature more than usual. i dont know why all of this suddenly happen which i really not appreciate it. fuck it man like seriously fuckkkkk itt ! i really wanna do my assignment, lord please give me strength where i still got assgnment need to be done and submit bfore the holiday. sighh~ im not liking this sem for sure. T_T

so what am goin to do now ? T_T fuuu fuuu !

okay. study for tomorrow exam. print c haris punya redo assignment. and pak karim. the other two assignment of pak karim will be done before thursday maybe? LOLOLOLOLOLOL i wanna kill myself. okay bye. is it normal to get sleepy in time like this? T_T not normal since my dad always screaming my name when i was about to sleep time like this. nogood huh !

messed up.

okay akhir akhir sebelum sem berakhir ni la aku sumpah messed up. which i ate like a lottttt. ! my bowel movement is sooo fucked up. i really dont know what the hell is going on with my stomach. i ate a lot but is my stomach really kept all the left food? and if yeah then ill be dead because i will gain my weight like alot alot a lott ! oh man. this is stressing me up.

while im still dealing with the fucking assignment and im not scare to blame the lecturer because giving me pressure as hell. the assignment should be release but the lecturer keep giving excuse !print habis lah. itu la ! ini lah. while the redo thinggy also make me wanna maki the hamun muka all the lecturer. or it is my fault juga kan. but what ever !! sjkfhsdfjkhfgjfhdgjfhdg

tomorrow is my last paper, but im giving my full attention to the assignment and not the upcoming paper. i dont have mood to talk . whats on my mind is just finish the assignment and then i want to relax like seriously relax. ohhh im so stressed up! help helpp!!

goodbye happiness :)

itu lagu utada hikaru. best best. mula mula macam pelik lama lama bule trima suda. hehehe

okay. my member tadi baru meluahkan perasaan sebab dia sangat tensi dengan assignment ganen sebab sumpah susah okay. haha. like seriously takde idea macam mana nak buat. so i guess malam ne tak tido or berjaga sebab nak buat assgnment. nak hatar awal so that bole re-do awal.. pheewww. sumpah weh. saya tidak tertekan. but let us list down my assignment. :)

assignment 1 engineering science
assignment 2 engineering science
assignment 3 enginnering science

assignment 3 solidworks

assignment 1 application of machine tools

jyeahh itu lah assgnment saya yang masih belum siap. hehe :)) hebat kan !

i need to mandi to fresh. coffee. and assignment and good music too !

i miss my dad

i just miss him suddenly. i hope he's doing fine. i think it is because of the movie that i just watched everybody's fine. :( oh my god. i really hope i will not let my dad just living his life alone. and ill make time for you everyday even im buzy as hell. this is my word dad. i know ur not gonna read this.

i hope my eyes tidak akan menjadi sepet due the tears seems wont stop. idk why :(

saturday

just woke up. i know i supposed not to sleep at this moment. but my eyes cant resist. and the wind whisper to my eyes go sleeping and you'll feel much better. and yeah. here i am. this is what i dont like when it comes to saturday. i love to wasting my time not doing anything. like yeah. anything !!! oh goshhhh. pleaseeeeeeeeeee T______T

i probably get the chance untuk menjadi gilak. ahahaha yeah. sebab orang bilang, barangsiapa yg tido time selepas asar boleh mewarisi penyakit gila. ahaha well mari aku cakap how i waste my time this saturday, well bangun pada 11.30am. hebat bukan. menghadap laptop smpai lah almost 1. then mandi siap siap pergi rumah my classmate, (saya d amanahkan untuk mengcheck kucing nya c alang d rumah sebab membe tu balik kl) , after that, main2 sama c alang smpai pkul 2 lebih. then turun text my roomate pegi membeli nasi d bawah sebelah blok kawan saya tu. then makan. then wathicng clifford and the goonies. ! ahahaha

now watching nanny mcphee and big bang :)) skrang menunjukkan pukul 8 lapan. see im really good at wasting time, am i :)

okay.

now saya betul betul suda faham perasaan orang frust. teda selera makan , and kalau boleh mau diam jak for whole day. burh padahal tengah malam. memang lah teda selera mau makan. akakaka. budu bha ko ne fifa. hmm jarrang jugak rupanya aku frust. budu bha aku ne. bukan ini ka yang aku mau. tapi kenapa aku masih frust ? hahaha. mesti ada something lagi yang aku nda puas and mau pertikaikan. tapi entah lah. aku cam malas mau cakap pasal benda ni. bukan aku mau attention. but seriously, im not ready to talk about this. haha now aku paham perasaan orang yang tida mau cakap pasal benda something that they dont wanna talk about. heehehe

mau tidur, teda semangat. astgaaa. sekrang ne aku dudukkkkkkkkkkkk jak dari tadi. mereply msg, on9 tumbling. except p toilet p kencing absolutely lah aku berlari kan. kalau nda, hmm . sepa sepa baca mesti naik boring dengan blog ne kan. hahaha. yala aku cakap apa yang aku mau seja. org lain nda akkan faham. sorry lah. blog ne memang aku yang punya so suka hati aku lah. muahahahahahaha . gila kejam . T_T

ok la , kalau rasa2 aku mau cakap, pandai la aku menulis blog ne. hehehe dia jak yg aku ada. mau tulis d diary but like what i said. malas mau cakap. nda ready bha. :)

100posts

ini akan jadi post yang ke 101. sekarang ni tangan jari badan saya semua nda larat. hehe kalau boleh saya mau mengengsot jak badan ne p mana2. frust ? hmm jangan cakap . nda frust jua saya ne. tapi maybe respond yang saya terima tidak menggembirakan saya. im not ready sama relationshit pun jugak. tapi.. uwaaaa i dont know what is wrong with me. ini salah. itu salah. tapi like seriously saya nda pernah regret dengan all of this. heehe tapi yala. the way he end the conversation itu kan sangat nda siuk oh. drive alasan dia ? hmm bhaa yala. mana mana dia jak lah. natau la kalau dia mau mengavoidkan diri nya sama saya.

eheheh nda kau tekjut beruk. but actually deep inside my heart, i do really feel good about it. ahahahahahahahahahahahhaahahahahahha tapi saya rasa ini effect minum kupi kali. my heart jadi macam ngilu2 nebes semacam. mau teberak. bercampur baur perasaan saya sekarang. sigh~ tapi yang sure saya sangatlah tidak larat

frust. hehe

well itu lah padah. bila kau terlalu layankan malas , mengantuk kau sehingga memakan diri. aku dah banyak kali kena macam ne, tapi biasalah aku hanya manusia biasa yang pemalas tahap dewa. akibat kemalasan aku. see aku xtau pun buat satu benda assignment . macam mana mau cuti kalau assignment tak dapat buat. haihh. saat ini, kalau lah aku bukan aku, dah lama aku belasah aku. well teda sapa paham. hehe

menyesal oh. apa boleh buat. sem mahu habis suda baru kau mau menyesal kan. bodoh lah. teda guna pun. its too late. really2 late. i hope next sem kau x ikut sangat lah malas kau tu. sigh~ semua assignment tak boleh buat. dari itu sampai lah ke ini. aku hanya memandang sedalam dalamnya paper tu. pencil kaku d tangan, bunyi kipas and tv sahaja kedengaran. otak saya sakit memikirkan permulaan nya. namun still aku x dapat menjawapnya. kebodohan or kemalasan harus dipersalahkan? well aku xtau sama ada aku ne memang bodo or what. just kepala hotak aku. hmmm

ini lah padah bila kau suka menangguh2kan kerja. yeshh ! hahaha. padan lah muka kau. well kalau aku nak salah internet boleh tak ? hehe aku patut salahkan internet like seriously. :) sial la weh :'( or adaka aku perlu pergi ke lib. ahh sama jugak. bukan ada jawapan pun sana kan. damn !

gila sedih wehh :(

SEKARANG AKU RASA DIRI AKU BODOH TERAMAT. LIKE SERIOUSLY BODOH T___T.

kesakitan hati aku akibat bodoh ne menyebabkan aku tak boleh tidur. or kepala aku dah tak boleh function or i need to sleep ? ahh kau ada jak alasan. see memang aku ne tak berguna. oh gosh saya sangat sedih melampau2 :(

i hate myself for being stupid :(